She's Not Afraid/ Carl Gallagher

He'll Never Be Good Enough

  I sit in German class bored out of my mind. I glance up at the clock 2:38.Thank god school ends at 2:40.

"Alright class, homework tonight is to study the new list of vocabulary words for the quiz Friday.", Mrs. Thomas announces.

Then the bell finally rings. I grab my bag and head out the door thankful to finally go home.
Before I can leave the teacher stops me.

"Laci, may I speak to you?", she asks seriously.

Oh shit I think I hope to god I'm not in trouble.

"Am I in trouble?", I ask as I step aside to speak with her.

"No, actually the opposite. You have been invited to join the Honors German Fellowship program.", she says excitedly.

"What does that mean?", I asked confused.

" Basically it means you've been invited on a scholarship to spend the next nine week marking period at their campus and take advanced German courses.", she states.

"Really? Why did they choose me?", I question.

"You've had outstanding grades and common core testing scores." She says. "Here take this home and read it.", she says as she hands me an envelope. "There is also a campus tour this weekend; I hope to see you there.", she remarks.

I thank her and walk out the door looking down at the fancy envelope with my name printed in gold letters. I toss it in my bag. I walk outside. There is literally no one there. I get my phone out and check the time 2:52. Debbie definitely left without me. I decide to wait on a bench for Carl to get out of detention. Since the dance last week we have kinda of been dating. I'm really happy for once. I didn't end up winning Fling Queen but I really didn't care. The pictures and videos off Logan's speech and my reaction were all over school at first. I really was too happy to notice though because I was finally with Carl.
  I grab some homework out of my bag to do forgetting about the envelope. I pull out my Pre- Algebra page and start working. So far the class has been really easy. I finish the page in about 20 min. I look up and see kids walking out from detention. I spot Carl with some guy. I walk up to him.

" Hey look who waited.", he says as I approach him."

"Hey.", I say and smile.

"Why didn't you walk with Debbie?", he asks as we start to walk home.

The envelope crosses my mind. I decide to keep it to myself.

" Because I wanted to see you.", I lie.

"I mean I can't blame you.", he answers with a smirk.

I turn and kiss him.

"Hey get a room!", a hear a familiar voice yell from a car.

We pull away and look up to see Lip driving a nice black jeep.

"Hey Lip!" I say excitedly.

"Need a ride?", he asks us.

We nod and get in.

"Where did you get this?", Carl asks him as we start to drive.

"My rich girlfriend." He answers with a laugh.

"Nice.", Carl replies.

"Shouldn't you be at college?", I tease him.

"Yay but I was in the neighborhood and decided to come home for dinner." He tells us.

"Yay nothing like Fiona's crappy cooking.", Carl jokes as we pull up to the house.

We get out and walk in to see Debbie on the couch making out with some guy.

"Eww gross.", Carl says as he walks up stairs. "You coming.", he asks me.

"I'll be up in a minute." I tell him.

I wait till he's gone.

"Can I talk to you alone." I ask Lip.

He nods and we walk to the kitchen and sit down. I pull the envelope out of my backpack and hand it to him.

"What's this?", he asks me.

"Just read it." I say nervously.

He carefully opens the thick envelope. He slides out a sheet of folded paper and a packet. He starts reading. I sit on the counter nervously. After a few minutes of reading he just looks at me.

"Shit Laci, this is an amazing opportunity.", he says impressed.

"I know but I don't think I could leave for a whole nine weeks.", I say trying to make a point.

"Well you should consider it because I know the only reason you wanna stay is Carl.", he says giving me a look.

I roll my eyes at him.

"It's true. You know Carl doesn't deserve you. You care so much about him.", he says seriously. "I mean he cares a lot about you too but he'll never be good enough for you.

"Thanks Dad.", I reply sarcastically even though I know a lot of what he said was true.

"Anyway will you go with me to a campus tour this weekend?", I ask with puppy eyes.

"Of course." He replies.

"Also can you not tell anyone." I ask.

He nods. I hug him and grab the papers and my bag and walk up to see Carl.

"What took you so long?" He says looking down from his bed.

"Nothing.", I say and climb up to his bed.

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Hey everyone. I'm back from my break. I hope you enjoyed. Also I wanted to tell you I will be using ideas/scenes from shameless seasons 4-6. This book isn't really based off a certain season though. Thanks for all the reads!! We're currently at 33 reads for the entire
book!
Love you all,
C :)