She's Not Afraid/ Carl Gallagher

This Is It

  This is it. This was our last night together. This past weekend flew by. It was thanksgiving. The next time I would be home is for Christmas. I let the reality sink in as I sit on Carl's bed wearing one of his t-shirts and a little pair of shorts. I start to silently cry. Tears keep coming refusing to quit. I remember the last time I cried was the night of the dance. Through my blurry vision I see Carl walks in and climbs up the ladder. He sits on the bed hugging me. When we finally pull away I notice he's crying. This was the first time I'd ever seen Carl cry which makes me cry even harder. I pull him into a hug and stroke his hair. Eventually when we can't cry anymore we lay down entangled in each others bodies.

Carl pov.
  I wake up in the bed alone. The sad reality sets in that I'll be getting used to this. I get out of bed and get dressed in a black hoodie and jeans. Laci walks in the room wearing my yellow tie dye hoodie, leggings, and black converse.

"Can I take this with me?", Laci asks tugging on the fabric of the hoodie.

"You can take anything you want.", I tell her.

"I love you Gallagher.", she says touching my arm.

"I love you too.", I say putting my hands on her hips and pulling her in for a kiss.

The kiss turns into a full on make out session. I kiss her neck knowing exactly what I'm doing. We finally stop and there's a pretty big hickey on her neck. She puts her hand over it and turns and looks in the mirror at it.

"To remember me.", I say smirking.

"Only you Carl.", she says tying her hair up so you could really see it. "We better go downstairs. Fiona will want to leave soon."

We grab her bags and head downstairs. The table is filled with food. There's pancakes and eggs and bacon and a shit ton of other stuff.

"Holy shit who made all this.", I ask Fiona who's standing in the kitchen drinking coffee.

"V and I did.", she replies. "Only the best for Laci."

"Thanks so-", Laci tries to speak but is cut up by Fiona.

"Is that a hickey?!", Fiona asks surprised.

"Yep.", I say smirking.

She rolls her eyes.

"Our Kev and V coming to eat with us.", Laci asks Fi.

"No I thought it would be just be us.", Fiona says as we sit down.

We sit down and eat. All the food is really good.  About halfway through eating Debbie and Franny come down and start eating too. We finish and clean up. An eerie feeling is set because everyone is dreading what's going to happen now. We load all Laci's bags and stuff for her dorm in the car. Laci and I sit in the back seat holding hands as we drive away. Eventually she falls asleep on my chest.

Laci pov.
  I wake up on Carl's chest as we pull into a familiar parking lot. We find a spot and get out all carrying something of mine. We walk to the main office and the lady at the front desks directs us to my dorm. We find it and unlock the door revealing an empty room. I guess my roommate's not here yet. We slowly unpack my things. Carl keeps joking around but I know this is killing him. We finish in about an hour and we kinda just all stand around.

"Guess it's time to say goodbye.", I finally say in a weak voice.

I first hug Fiona.

"I love you so much Laci.", she says stroking my hair.

"Thanks for everything Fi. I'm so grateful for you. Thanks for giving me a family. I love you so much.", I tell her in a shaky voice.

"Thanks for coming into our family Laci.", she says as we pull away from the hug.

Next was Debs. I watch her as she hands Franny to Fiona.

"I love you.",is all Debbie can get out. She's already in tears.

"I love you Debs thanks for being an amazing sister.", I say rubbing her back. We stay like that for a while.

When we finally pull away Fiona says "alright Debs we better give them some space."

"Bye guys. Bye Franny.", I say to them.

"Bye Laci.", they say walking out of the room.

I turn to Carl and he pulls me into a immediate hug.

"Laci I love you. I'm so glad I got to grow up and be happy with you for so long. You're my everything. You're so amazing. You make me want to do better, you make me want to live. My life is forever changed because of you.", Carl says deeply. We pull away from the hug and he puts his hands on my face and looks deep into my eyes. "Laci your the love of my life. I know there's no one else out there. No one can top you. You're the best thing to happen to me. You're the best part of me."

"I love you too Carl. I remember waking up and seeing your face. I remember all the crazy nights with the Gallaghers. I remember all the nights it was just me, you, and Debs on the couch watching movies. I remember you being my best friend and I know that you will always be. You think I changed you but really you changed me. You changed my life, Gallagher. If it wasn't for you I don't know where the hell I'd be. Carl your the only one I want and you'll always be the only one I want.", I tell him this all trying not to start bawling.

Then we hug one last time. Finally we kiss. We hold the kiss for a good five minutes because neither of us wants to be the one that lets go. When we do break away tears are streaming down both our faces.

"Goodbye Gallagher.", I say crying.

"Bye Baby girl. Promise you won't fall in love with some nerdy kid.", Carl says through his tears.

I nod and watch him walk away.

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Omg so many feels!!! Sorry this took a long time to get up but I wanted to make it really good. I'm so sad! How do you guys feel? Guess what?! We're at 96 reads which is fucking insane!! Guys I think we're gonna reach 100 soon! Thanks so much for reading! I might have and update up tomorrow or soon idk. Anyway make sure to check out my new Ethan Cutkosky fanfiction. Hope you enjoyed
Love you,
Cilia:)

Ps the picture up top is just showing the hoodie Laci stole from Carl