A Merlin and Morgana Love - Story <3 - (Slowly Updates)

A Merlin and Morgana Love - Story <3 - Part 6

I walked through the hall of the castle, bored out of my brain.  There was nothing to do, and I could barley do anything in my condition.  I was just beginning to show, I hoping that Uther did not notice just yet.  But I guess it did not really matter because Gwen, Gauis and I would be leaving soon, so I could have my baby.  

I came to the window when I first saw Merlin, it also happened to be the day that Uther chopped someone's head off, but I guess if a bad thing happens then a good thing happens like Merlin.  But now that didn't seem so true.  I sighed then I turned and saw Arthur, he smiled then came and hugged me. 

"how are you this morning?" he asked 
"I'm fine actually" I said with a weak smile, 
"really you don't seem it" Arthur said breaking the hug. 
My eyes were filling up with tears, I tried not to blink other wise the tears would come and I would not be able to stop.  
"Morgana you don't have to be brave all the time" He said 
"you know I could say the same thing to you" I said 
Arthur laughed and then smiled " and you don't have to be right all the time" he said 
"But it is a great feeling when I am right all the time" I said with a smile. 
"well I better be off" Arthur said 
"wait" I said grabbing his hand, Arthur looked at me then down to his hand I quickly let go "sorry" I paused and licked my lips. "have you seen Merlin?" I asked
"Morgana" Arthur started then I hear footsteps and turned around.  It was Uther. 
"Good Morning!" He said with frown on his face, he hug and kissed me on the cheek. 
"it is really?" I whispered to myself. 
"We will have breakfast soon" he said 
In that moment when Uther said breakfast made me throw up all over his shoes.  
"Well" Uther said " you better not come then" and walked off. 
I held my stomach and moaned, Arthur grabbed my shoulder 
"come on then let's get you to bed" he said 

Arthur laid me down on my bed and then got Gwen, Gwen dapped a cold cloth over my head my face felt like it was on fire.  I held my face out Gwen so she could hold it and she did.
"you are going to be fine, My lady" she said
I laughed a little and smiled " to bad I don't feel fine now" I said.  My eyelids then became to heavy for me to hold up and the darkness of a dream took over.


I saw that Camelot was on fire, people where screaming and running like in all my other dream.  Then it all went quiet, I heard a baby cry I went running through the streets of Camelot looking for the baby.  Then it went quiet again and a voice began to talk the same voice in all my other dreams. 
"it doesn't have to be like this Morgana" 
"I can see no other way" I yelled 
The voice laughed "if you do not listen to me now you  will lose the one you love" 
"I have no one, nobody can love me!" I screamed back at the voice. 
"and why do you think that is Morgana" the voice said 
I didn't answer fearing of the voice would say back to me. 
"have nothing to say now?" the voice said " do you want me to tell you!" 
I turned and started running away from the sound of the voice
"you can't run from me Morgana I'm everywhere" 
"why can't you just leave me alone" I said catching my breath. 
"now where would there be the fun in that! After all witches love to have fun, I can't see why your a witch too, it makes no sense" the voice said. 
"Wait I'm a witch!" I said but there was no answer the voice was gone, and soon after I was gone from the dream too. 

I woke to the light of a candle beside my bed, it was dark Gwen had probably gone home by now.  I sat up in my bed, I was scared of what the voice said, but I guess it was only a dream.  I dropped my legs over the side of my bed, my feet touched the cold stone floor. I stood up and walked to my door and slowly opened it.  I got out into the hallway and then shut my door.  I walked as fast as I could to Gauis and Merlin part of the castle.  When I wasn't pregnant this was easy but now that I was it was harder.  I walked up the twisted staircase I came to the door. I took a deep breath and then knocked.  A couple of minutes later I saw Merlin, he yawned and fixed up his bedhair. Then he saw that is was me. 

"Morgana?" he said 
"Merlin" I said pulling him out and shuting the door behind him. 
"Morgana I don't think this is a good idea" he said 
"I didn't even say anything yet" I said 
"Morgana, just go I don't want to hear about you and the prince" he said 
"The Prince?" I said I was so confused now "what about the prince?" 
"that you are going to have his baby" Merlin said 
"what?!" I said 
"you are going to get married as well" he said 
"WHAT" I hissed "Merlin none of that is true" 
"you mean..." he said a goofy smile fell over his face, he came and hugged me tight 
"where did you hear those things?" I asked
"Arthur" he said 
I broke the hug "I'm going to kill him" I said 
"Morgana it doesn't matter now" Merlin said hugging me I put my arms around him and breathed in his scent.  
"I missed you" I said, 
"I missed you too" Merlin said, I looked up at him and he smiled down at me and then he kissed the top of my head. 
"don't ever do that to me again" I said, 
"I won't ever leave your side again, I promise" he said, Merlin then kissed my lips.  I didn't want it to end but I still broke it.  
"Our sides" I said putting Merlin's hands on my stomach. 
"right" Merlin said smiling, but something told me that he was sad. 
"Merlin are you alright?" I asked 
"yeah just fine" he said
"Really because it doesn't seem that way" I said 
"Oh my God Morgana" Merlin hissed "why can't you see this is NEVER going to work" 
I licked my lips, and held my hands close to my heart as if it had broken.  I turned and ran back to my room as fast as I could. 

When I got there I fell down on my bed, and burst into tears I always though that this was going to happen but I never though Merlin would actually say it.  I held my stomach it was only the baby and me now.  All alone and I hated it I grew up without a father and I was putting this poor baby in the same condition.  I could I do that to the baby.  I stood up and walked over to my new mirror, I hated myself, I pick up some scissors that sat on my dresser,  but soon my hate would be gone forever.