A Merlin and Morgana Love - Story <3 - (Slowly Updates)

A Merlin and Morgana Love - Story <3 - Part 7

I raise the scissors about to drive them through me, but then I saw Gwen in the reflection of the mirror, she comes rushing towards me, she quickly takes the scissors off me as if I were a child. 

"Morgana" she said in shock, then she sat me down on my bed, "Morgana why would you do that" 
"I have nothing to live for" I said 
"Morgana what about Merlin and you're child" Gwen said, 
I didn't answer, by the look on my face I think Gwen understood why I was upset.  She laid me down and tucked me in.  Then Gwen laid next to me on my bed and held my hand.  I liked that 
"Thank you for stopping me from doing the most dumbest thing" I said 
"don't call yourself dumb my lady" she said with a little laugh.  
"If I want to call myself dumb I can" I said with a smile,
"so how are you feeling?" Gwen asked 
"fine, for now" I said 
Gwen sighed then looked me in the eye, "so have you thought of names" she asked 
"not really" I said 
"well how about Gwen, that is a nice name" Gwen said smiling 
"ha ha" I said putting my hands on my stomach,  
"well then what name?" Gwen asked 
I licked my lips " I am not sure" I said 
"what about gender, surely a girl right" Gwen said 
"I'll love it no matter what it is" I said 
Gwen smiled, "now I am going to trust that your not going to do something dumb again" she said 
"I won't" I said 
"good" Gwen said giving me a kiss on top of my head. "I will see you later" and then she left.  

I wrapped myself in the covers more, I was hot and cold at the same time.  At last I closed my eyes and a dream took me in.  

The voice started talking straight away 
"you dropped him then?" it laughed 
"you knew this was going to happen didn't you?" I said 
"of course I did Morgana" the voice said " I know all" 
"shut it" I said 
"trying to be brave now?" The voice said 
"NO"  I said 
"Then what?" the voice said 
"I'm trying to be me" I yelled 
"finally" the voice said 
Suddenly the scene changed I was in the Camelot throne room,  someone was sitting on the throne. I moved closer and saw that it was me.  
"Morgana glad you could make it" she said 
"who are you?" I said 
"I am you" she said with an evil smile 
"No, NO you are not me" I said backing away 
"oh but I am" she said getting up and coming towards me. 
"Back off" I screamed 
But she didn't listen,  
"all you see here you can have Morgana" she said 
"I don't want it" I said 
"oh but you do" she said 
"NO" I yelled 
She stepped closer to me 
"oh yes you want Merlin, well I'll just have to get rid of him, and this baby" she said 
"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" I screamed 

I woke up screaming, my heart was racing I quickly put my hand to my tummy there was still a small baby bump there. 
"Oh thank God" I said to myself and then took a deep breath.  I got up and got changed into something that still fit.  I walked down into the courtyard, the villagers were starting to get up.  Most of them waved to me I smiled back to them.  I walked down the the stables and fed some of the horses, I hadn't been on a horse in so long, and I couldn't really go now, which was a sham.  I was walking back up to the castle when I ran into Gwen. 

"My lady" she said "I didn't think you would be up yet" 
"well I am" I said with a smile.
"Breakfast?" Gwen asked 
"why not" I said today I didn't throw up on anyone's shoes although I did have fun throwing up on Uther's, but that's only because I hate him.  

I walked into the throne room, I could smell bacon and almost everything else that was there.  I thought I was going to throw up for a second.  But then I quickly took my seat at the table.  Then Uther came in. 

"ah Morgana great you can join us this morning" he said, 
I nodded, and then was sick all over his shoes again.  
"Ah Morgana" Uther said putting his hand on my shoulder. 
"Sorry my lord" I said 
"Don't worry about it" he said,  " you better go get some rest then I'll get Gaius to come and see you"
"yes that would be great" I said, getting up and walking out of the throne. 

Gwen and I walked back to my room, Gaius was already there. Gwen shut the door behind us. 
"you are being to show Morgana" Gaius said 
"I know" I said putting my hands on my tummy. 
"we will have to be leaving within the week" Gauis said 
"the week" I said a little shocked 
"if we stay any longer Uther may notice" Gauis said
"yes you are quiet right" I said 
"since you are throwing up we can use that, you will be going to Eledor" he said 
"Eledor..isn't that Merlin's village?" I asked even though I knew the answer 
"Yes, his mother is going to help us" Gwen said 
"oh" I said I sat down on my bed 
"yes, well for now you should get some rest, and I will see you in the morning" Gaius said 
"yes of course" I said 

Gaius left and I got changed into my sleep wear it was late morning and it felt silly going back to bed at this hour. Gwen was tucking me in 

"Gwen I am really not tired" I said 
"yes but Gaius said you need rest" Gwen said crossing her arms over her chest 
"But Gwen" I moaned like I was a child 
"don't but Gwen me you are going to rest and that is final" Gwen said shutting the curtains hiding the sun light.  I pulled the covers up to my chin and snugged in.  I felt my eye close and a dream taking me in.  

I was with Merlin in a field, we were lying down on a rug eating some sandwiches, laughing having fun.  He chased me around until we fell over into some long grass, I laughed and stood up but Merlin wasn't there I panicked the sunny day that it was turned to grey skies.  Suddenly I was in a forest running from something, but no matter how fast I ran I couldn't get away from it.  As the beast court up with me I couldn't breath then when it court me with it's teeth I woke. 


I sat up straight in bed my heart racing sweat falling from my face.  I licked my lips then pushed the cover away from me.  I got up and started packing some things I had to get away, far away forever I couldn't stay in Camelot not when Merlin didn't love me the way I love him. I put on a hood over my head, and felt my room.  My first stop would be the stables and then I don't know where I would go I just knew my place wasn't here.