Watching minds break

Its just me and myself ,and those who hear voices: Chapter One< long sorry>

Here I lie in my causal also functional (NOT),,,Victorian style dress and corset in complete black , I would look quiet dashing if I was 105 years ago and going to a funeral . But I think the bloody tears that once leaked out out of the corners of my eyes make me quite repulsive , I would speak to any who care to listen but as I lie here on a cot bestowed upon that of a mad woman I hope that I could have the chance to explain that I am real and not a imagine her corrupted mind built, "I would refer to it as broken not corrupted we can fix broken" dr,Garmen is something else she still has hope, by the time someone actually leaves this horrid place her hopes will be squandered, I chuckle as I hear foot steps she's here I jump off the bed and quickly slide into a shadowy corner , if she can see me I don't want to lose her to my recklessness huh I just hope she is well moderately sane!
"Welcome to your new home Sydney" Dr.Garmen says as I hear the door creak open and I see a beautiful blonde haired girl wearing a Football (Soccer) themed shirt
"home? You said I could go "Sydney says a little too loud and she turns to my corner she sees me but she is not startled by my presence hello Sydney who seems to be a fan of football (soccer)
"You may leave after as you put it I put your pieces back together "Dr.german didn't sound anywhere near hopeful huh I guess you do see ghosts either that or you committed a crime , your mind is corrupted, so that means I can say hello can't I ? Dr.German leaves the room and I stand out of the shadows as the door closes "Hello my name is Marzanna , how are you ?" I say as I see a twisted smile curl up her face.
For a minute I felt a spike of fear than she said "A ghost with a British accent huh "
"British and Irish love!, I am not a measly ghost I am- well in all actuality I have no bloody idea what I am , see here I made a deal with a - well I have no clue what he was either but I made a deal, and I broke it and he cursed me , my mom locked my up , I died and here I am "I say as I get on her level , almost touching the floor but stoping I don't think I can't do the whole pretend to be able to touch the floor thing today,
"Oh you are one of those ,the ones who are willing to tell their whole life's story but stop as soon as they near how they died, and I don't suspect I will be here long "Sydney says as she takes a seat on the single cot in the room and she adds"I usually have to share a room what's with the single cot?"
"Well as I understand Dr.Garmen has checked in her first high risk patient , I guess you are one of the ones who have a corrupted mind , are a danger to yourself , or committed a crime"I say mocking her original statement I sit on the desk in the wall across from her as I ask out of pure curiosity "what did you mean you don't suspect you will be here long ?"
"Well I am a Ghost hunter "She says and is surprised by the utter silence "no I was kidding , but I work for these government guys who quote assess the situation, damage and threat ,,, they are pretty much seeing how many ghosts/supernaturals are here and seeing if you are nice or mean , and last one if you have caused anyone to go crazy or to stay in here , so are you a problem , because talking to people is a bad sign"She says as I sit and take in what she said well if I am here that means there could be others but I have never seen them!
"I only talk to High Risk patients and those who already hear voices , and if they get better I stop talking to them"I say as I wonder "What would you do if I was bad?"I ask and she is clearly surprised by my question
"Well I don't know "She says as she is clearly blushing profusely, she stands up and walks out the door as I closely follow
"Why can't I see any other , you clearly are seeing a couple"I ask
"Well I don't think you are a ghost , and I don't think that the government will like that "Sydney says as we reach the tan white room full of light blue and green chairs and couches , to the left there is a small collection of instruments and painting supply's and to the right are the dreaded offices , the psychological evaluations go on in there "huh most places don't have instruments "she says clearly hoping for a explanation
"They think if we can put our feelings into the arts it will assist in the process "I say as she clearly is surprised by my words
"You said we? Do you classify your self as one of them? And another question how long have you been here, I only see dresses like that in museums!"Sydney asks in amazement I am quiet old, how old are most of the things she comes across? And do all the feminine rule diminish as soon as I die "a lady never tells her age"ha my mom was so "proper "I would call her strict and Horrid
"I died when I was 21 the day after my birthday, and I died I don't exactly remember the date but it is cutting it close to 200 years ago"I say casually and answer her other question "and yes I was here before this was built , I have seen all the cruel horrendous things doctors have done to them , I have seen breaking news that sent the medical community in a tail spin , I have seen every bloody moment , YES I BLOODY CONSIDER MY SELF ONE OF THEM " I say the anger build up I yell the last statement ,,,she stood amazed by my comment
"Close to 200 , ghost evolve they don't just keep going , the oldest I have seen was 50 years and he died the day after, I didn't kill him , he just turned into dust and I have seen it 12 times , no one stays past 50 I just thought you bought that as a costume , so that means you died after the Salem witch trials , were you there? Were you accused of being a witch? We could learn so much from you !" Sydney says clearly excited and my face drops and if I could cry I would have curled up in a ball and cried
"I saw the trials yes , you should go talk to your other ghosts and "assess them""I say as I glide across the room to the only other one who I talk to ,Aidan who sees people but he had a brain defect when he was born , they are treating him and he is only 7 years old " hey bud how are you "I say as he looks up at me and says
"I'm feeling better and they said that I could leave in a few months , if all of the people in my head go away, " Aidan says as I smile
"Don't worry I promise if you tell me when the last one is gone I will leave right then deal, but till then can we still hang out bud ?"I ask hopeful
"Of course , want to play checkers!"he asks as I nod happily he races over and grabs the checker table and runs back and says "your move " , we taped numbers and letters to the side so I could say where I wanted to go and he could move me um I think D6 is good
"A6 " i say and he moves the piece and jumps me let the boy have some fun
"Medicine time" The nurse says as she rolls out a cart with names taped to little plastic cups , one filled with broken rock candy and the name on the label is "Aidan's friend" when Aidan first told Dr.Garmen about me she thought I was the way he coped with his illness and that I was his way of imagining the person who got rid of his delusions and Aidan insisted that I be given medicine so they fill my cup with sugar and I let him eat it
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Okay most of my chapter will be no where near this long, I got carried away , I do that a lot , I will write a lot and than realize that this really should of been two chapters but here we are , have a good night (it's was night when I wrote this it is um 11:45pm gtgtbb (got to go to bed bye)