Nya's Diary

The reasons why

Things are just sooo... im sick and just so depressed I hate a lot of things about myself n I just want to throw my life away because I feel like im not nothing and and im im a mistake actually I know I am I don't belong here.

People always picking with me n messin with me tryna hurt my feelings n actually succeeding. They make me feel worse about myself then I've already felt Sometimes I wonder if im a mistake or should I be one. I've attempted to change and end my life so many times since no one needs me or wants me

around in their lives.

Most of the people I know n talk to treat me n talk to me like I've made their life a living hell.

I'm starting to realize dat the people I thought were my friends aren't

Every time I get my stupid feelings hurt I just want to grab a knife n hurt myself so bad because I believe every word they say is true n I think its all my fault n I deserve to get punished from myself But once I do I might be so depressed angry mad n sad that my hatred towards myself might just take full controll over me n I might end up killing myself (oh well not a big deal) I bet everyone will get over it . N I know not to ask for forgivness from my family cause u can't even forgive me for being born can ya?

I don't like myself never did n never will neither will noone else I know dat for a fact

Every since I was born I think things were messed up because if I weren't born my family would of lived better so I'm sorry I was born I'm sorry I survived birth I'm sorry my mom didn't get an abortion like I bet she wanted I'm sorry for being a disappointment if I weren't born life would of been better for my family so they wouldn't have to worry about me n pretending dat they care n life for them would be better

(a poem for all the people dat made me realize dat I'm not worth nothing in other words bad)

You don't like me I don't care atleast that's something in common we both share that's right I'm insecure but I'll get over it cause there is no cure.

I'm sorry everyone

Nya