Im Not Ok!

The Next Day

Today Octiva confronted me, she told me I was abusive, aggressive, cruel, and demanding! I don't understand, why she feels that way about me right now! I need to talk to lainey, Octiva's closest friend. She is so nice to me! She will definitely tell me the truth. "Hey lainey!", "hey!!!" lainey said, "Can I tell you something?" "yeah, what's up?" " I have been really nervous to tell you this.... OK, I really like you, I have taken time before telling you this so I can figure out these feelings. I wanted to make sure that these feelings were real!",it was completely silence for like 3 minutes. I was really shocked and speechless.  "Uh um", I chuckled weakly, "I was wondering if Octiva said anything to you about me being abusive and demanding." Her expression went blank but she managed to say, "Not really, I mean she's not herself lately but I don't know why". I felt sorry for her, really. "Well thanks anyway, I'll talk to her as soon as I can", turning to walk away she caught up with me. "I wouldn't do that. Talk to her I mean. She's really mad at you." I know Lainey, very well in fact, and I know that was her attempt to keep me away from the girl I love. "Yeah, OK", I replied without letting my face show the many emotions stirring inside me. I quickly walked away,my mind running over the past 4 minutes. Later that day,I saw Octiva and lainey's warning came to mind. I started toward her, as if she saw me past her friend's shoulder she dragged her bag and hugged a girl in a pink mini dress. All the happiness, all my joy slowly drained from my heart. I really needed to man up, if it were true I'd fix it. But first I need to know why she said that. Need to know if it's true. I need the truth. I jumped in my car and went home to cry myself to sleep. Good bye happiness, a stranger forever.