Dear Future Me

Chapter 4: Acceptance

2012!Dan-

I sigh, closing the fridge and pouring myself a glass of ribena lite as it seemed there was no sign of normal ribena in the house. But, I wasn't complaining, it was something to drink that I was actually familiar with. It has been nearly a week since I was in 2016 with the different Phil and things have been pretty awkward to put it lightly.

We both kind of just keep to ourselves. Phil has pretty much taken away my computer and electronics so I wouldn't find out anything about the future. So, without electronics, I am practically dead. The only conversations we've carried out is what we would eat and small nods in greetings to each other when we pass by. It's annoying really, and as much as I didn't really want to find out things about the future from a Phil that isn't mine, I knew the silence had to be broken at some point.

"Phil!" I call out to him, walking into the lounge where he was, sat on the sofa with his laptop open, "Hey, what's up?" I ask as he looks up from his laptop to me questioningly.

"Um, not much. I've just been browsing the internet really. But, I'm thinking about putting on this anime me and Dan recently finished watching since I don't want to start anything new without him, y'know." He replies simply as I sit down at the table.

I could tell he was trying to figure out why I was choosing now, a week after being here, to talk to him after days of purposely trying to avoid even small talk. But he won't figure it out since I didn't even know what my exact reason was. "That's cool, what anime is it?"

"Blue Exorcist. Him and I literally finished it about a week before you both switched. It's about this boy named Rin Okumura, who is the actual spawn of satan. So, he's half human-half demon. When he grows up he is determined to become an exorcist and prove that he won't harm anyone basically. There's a lot of twist and turns in it but it's pretty awesome, so I don't mind re-watching it. I'm kinda sad there isn't a season 2 though, but that's alright."

I smile lightly at his response, reminding me of the Phil I knew, my Phil. This was how we should act around each other, not acting like we've been forced to room with our enemy.

Probably something I should've thought about before I fucked everything up and—

I shoot the thought away quickly before I could finish it. I wasn't going to let my mind ruin my positive mood at the moment. "That sounds interesting." I reply simply, looking at the ground. At the moment I couldn't think of a better response as I was fighting an internal battle with my thoughts.

I look up as I hear a small laugh escape from Phil. My cheeks turn a light red, embarrassed by whatever it was he was laughing about. "W-what?! What did I do?"

His laugh turns to a soft chuckle as he starts to speak. "It's just that- you're acting literally so awkward, and around me of all people. Future you doesn't normally do that anymore, but it was always funny how flustered you got after some kind of weird moment between us. "

My cheeks become even hotter and I cross my arms, looking away from him. "Sh- shut up." I answer simply.

I couldn't tell at the time, but if I looked up I would've noticed Phil's cheeks were beginning to become a light pink as well. He held back the urge to make any remarks about me being cute, remembering that I was 2012 Dan, not his own, 2016 one.

Instead of acting on these thoughts, Phil coughs awkwardly. "Anyways, would you like to watch Blue Exorcist with me? It seems you're trying to not be so introverted anyways." He jokes, grinning over at me.

I lift my head up and smile over at him. "Sure, and then we can watch an anime from my time so when I get back home I can just spoil it all for past you." I say playfully, jumping down onto the sofa as Phil places his laptop on the table and goes to put on Blue Exorcists.

"Haha, if you do that, I can assure you past me would kill you. But, I know you wouldn't do that seeing that you are the one that despises spoilers. So, if you think about it, I can go ahead and spoil every show that you are watching at the moment as some sweet revenge."

"Oh god, please don't. If you don't spoil anything for me, I won't spoil a thing for my Phil, I promise you that." I reply, leaning against the edge of the sofa, getting comfortable.

2016!Dan-

"I never thought about how tired I'd get of watching the same things over and over again." I groan as Phil plays the next episode of SAO, which to him was a brand new anime that had recently come out.

"Shush, you'll just have to deal with it Dan. I mean, at least you can use the internet. My Dan probably can't even pick up his phone."

"Ugh, poor mee. I must be dead if I can't go on the internet." I groan some more, moving around the sofa unable to keep still.

I see Phil roll his eyes. "Are you always this whiny in 2016?" He asks with a playful grin.

I nod my head. "If it's up to my verdict, yes. Totally," I get closer to him and smirk. "I am the most annoying person that you know in the future."

"Really? Welp, guess you didn't change much then." He holds back a laugh.

"Hey!" I shriek, grabbing the nearest pillow and hitting him in the face. "Shut up, that is not true!" I laugh and continue to hit him with the pillow.

Despite his huge fit of laughter he pushes me off since, at this point, I'm too busy laughing to fight back. "Hahaha, Dan stoooop!"

I slam my back against the couch, still biting back laughter. "Sorry, sorry. I just had to do that," I look over at him to see his fringe was all out of place.

Without thought, I bring my face and body closer to him and tuck his fringe to the side, fixing it. Our eyes definitely met and they were about only a few centimeters apart. Phil's eyes were the same as mine, but they were filled with so much more youth... And pure, innocent want. This should not have happened. Dammit Dan, why did you have to follow your instinct. The entire room went dead silent in my eyes, but of course the tv continued play in the background.

It takes an awkward cough from the Phil in front of me to get me out of my daze."Dan."

I jump back to the other side of the couch."S-sorry." My face is hotter than ever and I stare at the cushion in front of me blankly.

I'm ready to run into my bedroom and lock myself in there until I somehow end up waking back up into 2016, blocking out everything that just happened, but before I can do any of that I'm caught off guard by his reply. "N-no. It's, erm... It's fine, really."
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Hi guys! Sorry, I know this chapter is a bit late. I got side tracked by a Sherlock marathon and forgot to edit it. Thankfully, I've finished editing and here it is! I hope you all enjoy it :D!