Troubled Heart♡ (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 14. Didn't see this coming.

Tonight we spend the night together she gets a call, she actually answers it while with me. I wanted to hit her or curse her. Smiling on the phone with him right in front of me. How disrespectful. He was at her house and requested her home she said she will come when she's ready. "No wait on me " she said to him Really? Why not.
just say no and send him home ?

I signalled to her and said " tell him you're coming" and walked away. I left her standing there.

I came upstairs and laid down with tears in my eyes I couldn't take it anymore. They aren't even together and he still controlled her. I never stood a chance.

Before I could message her she message me stating how I hurt her leaving her there alone.

I ignored it, I replied. " I'm done, I can't do this anymore" she asked me why. I told her its because of him, they would soon be back together and I want to save myself the hurt. She understood in agreement to me.

I was really hoping she denys it.

She broke me. It hurt.

I then told her I could no longer be her friend and I want nothing to do with her.

I needed to get over her. This was my only way!.

She cried amd pleaded to me not to cut her off.

It was for the best. Finally it was for me!

She still messaged me the next morning I hesitated replying but I did. Again she asked me to atleast be her friend. Was she serious? Friend? So she could have him and still have me?

No! She wasnt get that satisfaction.

Filled with emotions and rage I told her No. I asked her to please leave me alone.

She told me im making her cry.

Why should I care after all she put me through?

Sadly I did care.

She came out and told me she would tell him, she would tell him about us. I told her not to, not to do anything for me nothing she would regret. She corrected me and said it was for us and that she wanted to. Its the only way he would leave her alone she said if he knew.

Stupid me I fell for it. I actually for a second believed she wanted to be with me.

Making excuses as to why she haven't told him yet I sensed it would never happened. Sickened that she played a mind game on me I wanted to leave.

Sigh I love her I couldn't not again, I hated that feeling. Atleast they weren't back together I used as an excuse.

Guess what?

She broke up with me.

So suddem after dissappearing today.

She claimed she didn't want to hurt me. Like im stupid!. How messed up right? She begged for me back! She stopped my healing process! She told me she would tell him. I hate her! I was strong though I was going out that night to celebrate independence and watch the fireworks with a colleague. One I was attracted to so it didn't hit me when she layed that bomb on me I told her why it didnt affect me the other day. That and also because I was done with the back and forth.

We stayed cool and we had plans on seeing each today. I drag her omg with me to the wash house it started off pleasant.

We then went for a drive while the clothes were in the drier. While I was driving she told me "I forgive him" I suddenly stopped the car. Not looking at her I was just there in the middle of the road.

To stop myself from hitting her I sped off and back to the wash house she held on my hand trying to calm me I yanked away and told her not to touch me.

The clothes were finished we left at once I calmed down a bit but I went to see my ex she was a upset, but did she have any right? Nope! I didn't care also stopped to see another female friend to bother her.

I began to feel guilty I asked if she want to go on the beach to talk she agreed first I stopped and bought some her ice cream. Cookies and cream she loved it.

We talked for a while but I said hurtful things so she could feel what I felt.

Im so stupid she left me to be back with him. She told me that was not the case I didn't believe it. We left and I drove her back home fighting tears in my eyes.

As soon as she left the car the tears escaped my eyes.

How did I become so vulnerable? I always let my guard down when it came to her.

It felt like my heart as being taunted.

She messaged me I told her I hate her and im really done with her this time I told her she hurt me with so much emotion if only she could see my tears! She begged me again telling me she needs me in her life.

I hate her I thought to myself and stopped replying.

She came back later that evening asking to see me I said No! She asked again I said No! She change the topic and came back and asked. I said when she said "Now" I said sure?

She came and suddenly parts of me wasn't upset anymore. I was filled with glee. She still had that affect over me.

But I couldn't show it i was still so hurt. We eventually got to hugging and then to kissing amd touching.

She had to go she insisted . Sigh I let her in my head again we was now on talking terms.