Troubled Heart♡ (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 15. Code Blue.

Diamond and I were bestfriends and part of me never wanted to lose that. And my love for her never allowed me to stay upset with her. Sigh I couldn't take it amymore being apart from her. I told her I want to be back with her she asked me if im sure I said yes and she agreed.

What was I thinking right? This girl had me sprung! All that pain and I didn't have enough.

Its what love does to you. My excuse atleast.

Diamond and I are doing fine. Her boy toy didn't affect me I pretended he didn't exist.

We spent time together night after night I felt so special. Kissing on her hearing her gasp it was such a turn on. Still no sex.
I must admit it angered me.

Sigh why did I love her so much ? I sometime questioned myself.

We haven't seen each other in a few days she asked me to wait up on her, she's taking so long im trying, in addition im feeling weak amd sickened. I accidentally fell asleep.

When I woke up she was clearly upset she hardly spoke to me. I woke up feeling worse than I went to bed I could had really used the comfort.

I had to go to work feeling sick and sad it was all to much I eagerly had to leave and head to the hospital. Where I got some disturbing news. It was my heart it was getting more weak. I always had a heart condition but never an episode in such a long time.

All the stress and pain I was under lately must had triggered it. The doctor advise me to take it easy. It was a life threatening issue.

I left her a message, "Just left the hospital although you don't care" when she got off she replied seeming so worried uggh I cringed by the fakeness. And I gave her attitude I admit but only because she gave me attitude I know it was because I fell asleep. She thought I purposely went to sleep not knowing the facts.

I scared her told her I had two weeks to live keeping up the act of caring I told her not to come to my funeral with fake tears. That really ticked her off she went off on me.
I asked her in reply to one of her comments, " If I piss you off so much why are you still with me" she stated she's leaving now.

Wow she did it again she left me. I was honestly done this time I stopped replying and deleted her contact and messages.

The next day I was already in another relationship to keep my mind off of Diamond. It worked, I didn't want to get back with her but I couldn't do it alone. It wasnt only me that jumped into a relationship. Ofcourse she was back with her boyfriend.

I didnt care or so I wanted to believe. Her and I remaimed friends. I was happy I was over her I believed I was. I rubbed my relationship in her face at times but just to have fun.

She had no right leaving me again, and I had no urge of wanting to be with her.

My girlfriend eventually left me because of the love I obviously still had for someone else. I didnt care I wasn't attached and she had already played her role. I no longer feened to be with Diamond despite my very much existing love for her.

Her and her boyfriend were working things out, but he asked her if there was anything she was hiding from him as if he already knew.

She was tired of lying she told me she was going to tell him. I didn't believe her because why now? Why didnt she do it when it was to be with me?

Shockingly she did. Nothing good came out of it for me. We would have to stop seeing each other and also talk less. She wanted to make it work with him and her feelings for me she didn't want in the way.

Tossed aside again. Yeah, I was used to it. It was always him over me. And I respected her decision.

I may not agree with it, but she deserved to be happy, with the person she loved obviously.

Hey, who was I to stand in the way of true love?