Troubled Heart♡ (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 10. The fall

It wasn't all bad, and it was not always all on her. I sometimes hurt her to with my words. I would always make her jealous with other females. It was only for attention and to assure that she cared about me. I always regretted it after but sigh it felt so good knowing she really cared for me. No girl could compare to her. She is all I want and need I just wish I was also enough for her.

I fell for her more and more everyday. But we were so distant, all the time she spent with her boyfriend and it killed me so much inside. She made me insecure and jealous. She spent more time with him than me but would always tell me she love me and when she sleep with him she imagined me. Sigh that to hurt because he was able to touch her and I wasn't. Knowing she thought of me didn't make it any better. But I would always just laugh as if I was amused by it.

Ghee wiz I love Diamond so much, every little thing began to affect me. I got mad easily. She always thought I was taking my anger from others out on her.

But no it was really my anger towards her that would build up. The anger that wanted out so badly. But I never wanted to argue with her or upset her for being jealous all she would say is "You knew what you were getting in to" how inconsiderate I thought. But she was right I did know. Sigh im so stupid all the females that wanted me I would turn down because they didn't make me feel the way she does.

I love her, im in love with her.

I couldn't take it anymore, we argued and I left her. It broke me I wanted to take it back but I had such high pride. I awlays did. It didn't allow me to fix what I did.

Sigh I couldn't sleep I cried myself into a deep sleep. Waking up still checking my phone. Only to no message. She was still upset to.

She messaged me later that day and I played it all cool knowing how bad I want to beg for her back. But I know I hurt her and made her cry. She told me she should had expected that. Knowing thats what she thought of me hurt.

Believe it or not, though she tend to neglect me. She really did deeply love me and it really was me she wanted. I felt it and I knew it. She just was afraid. Not just of coming out but that I would hurt her. I had a past. We were bestfriends before so she knew everything. Sigh but it was different with her. I was willing to do anything to make her happy. I put her before myself.

I always would ask her to get back with me she denied. She said she don't want me hurting her again. I knew she wanted me.

She just wanted me to not give up so easily.

Again my pride!

I always lauged it off and said something like "Lol ok" then change the topic as if it weren't important to me.

Sight, It really was.

She owns my heart.