Troubled Heart♡ (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 9. Wake up call

Diamond began to stay out late, I was so jealous. But I had no right to be. I met her with her boyfriend. I would always get left overs. Her schedule consisted of Work, home for a few minutes, then back with him. The only time we spoke was early in the morning before she head to work. Sometime on her what felt like 5 minute break, a few minutes when she reach home before she ran off with him. Sometimes I wouldn't even know when she leave she just left that killed me but I never told her. And then late when she came home we talk for a little while before she went to sleep because she was exhausted from a long day and had another ahead of her.

I hated this, we hardly talk and I never complained. I loved her so much I was willing to accept what I got. It ate at me inside though.

She would get angry with me if I took more than two minutes to reply to her. I thought how selfish of her. I was always there when she was available at her beck and call. She always dissaperead and took hours to reply to me yet she was the one complaining. I had such a short temper I couldn't hold back. I expressed all my feelings and she apologised. I knew nothing was accomplished though because everything would still be the same. She got mad at me so easily for nothing when really it should be me upset.

Sigh, I love her though.

Diamond was so paranoid I could never touch her or kiss her because we could always be caught she stated. Uggh it killed me. I wanted her so bad. Even if just to hold her in my arms for a while. But she never allowed me to. "When can I" I asked "When we are alone and in private. " My heart sinked. How could that ever happen if she never made no effort to be alone with me. Yet I still love her so much. She had a hold on me no one else ever had.

She always could get me to not be upset, I just couldn't stay mad at her.

I know she loves me its clear and its really me she wants to be with but is so scared of hurting her boyfriends feelings. She cared more for him than me.

She always claim she don't, but ofcourse she do. Why else would she always put him first? She never stays out late with me like she does with him. Always eager to get back home to tell him goodnight. It's always "Kieth this, Kieth that" my stomach always cringed at the sound of his name. She has him and his feelings on her mind at all times. I wonder if it was the same when she was with him for me. I knew it wasn't.

Yet I still love her.

She would always say she'd make it up to me but how? By spending a few hours with me? Hours that was well belonging to me

Sigh she would never spend a whole day. I sometimes cried at the thought of it.

Atleast now I knew to try and stop myself from falling if I wouldn't be caught.

I knew it would be hard.