I can't function. I have nothing left to go on. I feel nothing anymore. I can't think. I have lost my motivation. I have run out of what was pushing me. I can't do anything I can't feel anything. It's like I'm empty. I have lost my passion. I lost what made me me. How did I get here? Who took my hope?
Do you know what it feels like? To feel to be empty?
If you have you don't need to read on unless you are curious to see what happens. But if you haven't let me explain this feeling that has taken over me.
It's like a field. This vast field that has is nothing. It's like after you cry your heart out for days weeks years over what happenedj. It's like when I lost my dad and I cried for days months and eventually years. I was six. But I never forgot the feeling after crying for hours and finally running out of tears. I felt nothing I didn't have the energy. I felt drained. I was empty. It's like after you use up all of your energy. You are just drained. It's like that sinking feeling of having nothing left. It starts in your stomach and it just drags you down with it. It's an endless hole and you just fell in. You start to think it gets better but you realize was it ever better. Maybe the perfect world you thought was there was never there in the first place. And that moment you give up hope and you give up. That is the moment it becomes empty.
