Breaking the Habit//Gratsu

34

"Pill diet, pill diet, if they give you a new pill then you will buy it."

◇◇◇◇◇◇◇

Normal point of view:

A pink haired teen dragged his feet in the corridors to meet up with his therapist. He was dead tired. His medication was not the only thing making him drowsy, he fought with it continuously. He did not want to sleep because of what was to come if he lost consciousness. From splashing cold water on his face to pacing back and forth in his room all in order not to fall asleep. It caused a great toll on him. In addition to his efforts, his body couldn't last giving in to the world of dreams in the wake of dawn.

As Natsu entered the office, Dr. Ichinose's horrid vocals rang through the small room increasing his headache.

"Aki and me sitting in a tree. K-I-S-S-I-N-G. First, comes love then comes marriage then comes a baby in a-"

The counselor stopped spinning in his chair once he saw the deathly glare of the younger.

"Ahh Natsu..have a seat. How are you today?" The teal haired man inquired calmly fixing the papers on his desk as if nothing happened.

"Fine, how are you? Are the kids okay?" Natsu's voice dripped with sarcasm.

"You well know I don't have kids," The older grunted folding his hands together.

"And you well know I'm not fine." Natsu let out a bitter chuckle getting comfortable on the bean bag chair.

Dr. Ichinose studied his patient. He wasn't as bad as yesterday. Natsu appeared to be more settled and less aggressive.

'Something must have happened with that visitor.' He pondered, chewing on the toothpick between his lips.

Natsu brought his legs to his chest and rested his arms on his knees. He exhaled lightly and said, "These pills are confusing me. I don't know if I am getting back to how I was or if I am going mad. Yesterday I did something which I don't know if I would do it without the meds."

Dr. Ichinose made the boy tell him of what had happened, which of course resulting in missing parts to the story. He had an idea of what was cut out and smirked to himself taking advantage of the fact that the one before him wasn't making eye contact. Natsu's face was so flustered he dug his head deep into his knees.

The elder opened one of his drawers making the younger peer up. He handed him an Asian treat. When he saw him eating he decided to comment on the tale that was told.

"Antidepressants will not change your personality to such degree. Saying that 'it was the meds' will not get you anywhere. Since you truly desired to give this unknown person a chance, you accepted them. Either way, if you never wanted to be with the person, then when you were on the pill you would have straight out said no just like how you would say no not being on it. Do you get what I'm saying?" He finished explaining and took out the thin piece of wood from his mouth to eat his portion of pocky.

Natsu stopped nibbling on the treat and nodded weakly.

'I like Gray.'

'..a lot..'

'He's playing with you'

'Is he? Does he really-'

He shook his head and looked at the one in the white coat. Natsu sighed, "I find it weird. In my mind it's the same old loud voices and sad thoughts but..it's a bit calmer. I am calmer I guess."

"That's good to hear," Dr. Ichinose stated putting his elbows back on his desk.

"I-I want...to get better. I don't want to be sick anymore." The pink haired teen mumbled playing with the snack package.