His Obsession

Chapter 20

The night with its soft alluring breeze blew through the opened window.I dont know what, the distressing sounds or the heavy weight weighing on top of me, crushing me to death woke me up. When I opened my eyes I could not believe my eyes Aarej was in the thores of a nightmare he lay on top of me, his hundred & fifty something pounds crushing me but what stunned me the most were the distressing sounds he cried as I watched, his face etched with pain & he mumbled, "its not my fault".I looked confused as his mumbling changed to "don't leave me" & he further embraced me, I could feel my ribs bearing all this weight.I dont know what to do, how to wake him up while pondering on my thoughts, I abruptly gawked at him when I heard him utter "Maharukh".I thought he woke up but the next sentence chilled me the pleading in his pained voice scared me, "don't leave me, Maharukh".He was dreaming about me & that too a nightmare I dont know what to think but his weight was crushing me completely, I have to wake him up or I will collapse.I shakingly rose my hand & touched his face caressing I mutter softly,

Aarej!

He leaned into my touch calming down surprisingly, his distressed cries silenced I watched astonished as his pained expression changed to normal or dare I say he looked almost boyish & peaceful but the pressing matter was still there as he lay on top of me crushing me.I slightly shake him but he didn't move an inch now I have no other alternative.I slapped him hard on his shoulders afraid he will go berserk on me when he wakes up finally, he opened his sleep induced eyes like molten fire & watched me & said in a husky velvet voice

Kya hua?
(What happened?)

I was breathless & my entire body was aching with pain.I muttered desperately

Aarej, you are crushing me!

I groaned when suddenly, he released me from his bear hug, his eyes suddenly lost all sleep & he became wide awake.He immediately got up, breath releasing from my body in a whoosh & I inhale & exhale rapidly.He gripped my hands, a painful groan left my mouth, my arms sore & mared with black & blue fingerprints. He became horrified when he saw the bruises on me, his eyes filled with murderous rage, when I tried to get up my entire body ached making me fall back on the bed, the pain caused a few tears to leak my eyes I stilled myself to stop the pain rushing through my being.Aarej gentle touch made me open my tear filled eyes his head hung low in shame, his eyes bottomless pits of sorrow & despair with a tinge of regret.I could not blame him he was in thores of nightmare & he looked in pain deeply, he didn't knew what he was doing so even stunning myself, I captured his hand which made him snap his eyes to me & I shake my head to indicate that its not his fault.He looked at me awed but remorseful. He spat furiously

See, what have I done to you!
Iam a Monster!...you are right Iam a Beast...a cruel merciless spawn of Devil who destroys everything I touch!
I destroyed my Angel, you are in pain because of me...fuck! you cried because of me!
Fuck...Fuck....Fuck!

He was constantly belittling himself in self loathing, he was tugging his hairs mercilessly & then he punched the wall when he turned back his eyes were black filled with self hatred.I was observing everything silently but his self hatred chilled me to my bones & I tried to get up to stop him but my painful limbs refused to work & I fall back with a thud.This caused Aarej to turn & he marched towards me instantly, his loathing changing to concern & deep worry, he stacked pillows lightly laying me with the support & went to the washroom.After, few mins he was back with a first aid box, he sat beside me his expression determined & remorseful he holds my hand gently then he looked at me & he lowers his head to my hand & kiss the bruised part.I was completely shocked & I tried to tug my hand back but he kept on kissing every inch of the bruised part finally, he rose I was extremely embarrassed & could not even meet his soulful eyes filled with longing & regret. He quietly opened the first aid box & applied the healing tube on my bruises so gently & carefully that I actually relaxed he did the same with the other hand, when he was done he stood & went to the room fridge & brought a glass of orange juice.He placed the orange juice in my hand with a painkiller & pointed at me to finish it I obeyed just to relieve the awful pain, after I was finished he stood & brought a chair beside my bed.I glanced at him confused he shrugged & sat in the chair his face carved from stone, his lips thinned in a line but his eyes were soft drowning in sorrow, regret & shame.I queried him sofly