His Obsession

Chapter 22

The sunlight streaming through the high glass-panned windows woke me from my deep slumber.The sun with its majestic beauty & glittering rays greeted me.I opened my droopy eyes to the blurry world of colors.I rubbed my sleepy eyes & noticed I was bathed in golden sunlight, its burning heat like a soothing caress on my skin.My eyes wandered to the clock & the haze of sleep disappeared from my droopy eyes as I registered the time half past noon, I was shocked I have slept in exceptionally late...infact it was a first!...I, suddenly realized that I have missed my Fajr (morning) prayer & I hurried out of bed rushing through my morning routine.After performing my Wudu(way of cleaning ourself) I offered my Qaza Fajr Prayer(It is offered when a prayer is missed).While, rolling the prayer mat I looked at the window & it lured me, I went obseving the beauty of nature in the scorching sunlight.Unfortunately, the beautiful sight could not keep my turmulus thoughts away again & again, the question nagged me, to make sure I checked the door too & it was also unlocked...how is it possible?...I locked the door & window myself after last night's catastrophe....Oh my Allah...it means....!!!

I held my head in my hands while, the blood in my veins jackfired, heart racing thousand miles per min, my body trembling I remembered how Aarej....Oh my Allah...He kissed me!...He took my first kiss!...it felt like a lighting bolt had hit me, sparks erupted drowning me in a tingling whirlpool.I recalled the way I ran out of the living room mindless with shock & panic, how I locked the door & windows of the room, double checking then & only then I took the much needed breath, I was exhausted as the adrenaline rush waned but I could hardly shut my tired eyes again & again the scene played before my eyes, it seemed so surreal but I was terrified...I have witnessed the raging madness in his glowing fiery pools & it frightened me beyond anything.I perked on every creak, my entire being was all ears, rooted on the door but I dont know how & when sleep claimed me & I surrendered myself in its awaiting arms.

Now I know...Oh my Allah...he infact had came into the room last night, when I was sleeping so peacefully & watched me!
My face was on fire, the wall mirror showed my predicament the red burning my face sure made me look like a tomato! I tried to jerk my thoughts away but the more pressing matter was how Iam going to face him today...Oh Allah plz help me...guide me...Show me the Right path!

After calming my wild heart & burning face & sending a load of prayers I stepped outside & trotted towards the living room, with noone there I went to the kitchen & found Fatima I greeted her & she answered.I felt the house was unusually silent, Fatima set my breakfast on the kitchen table I ate it thanking her.I decided to roam here & there I went to the first floor opening doors, all the rooms were well furnished from high ceiling windows to the gleaming tiled-floors.Aarej's room or I say Our room was the Master bedroom unique in its opulence & luxury but the other rooms were no less.Eventually, I got bored looking through dozens of rooms & left.

I prayed Zahur(afternoon prayer) & decided to recite Holy Quran, the turmoil hanging over my sanity ebbed away as I read the Word of Allah & marveled at the Uncountable Blessings from The Rahaman-ur-Rahim.I was interrupted by a knock, I looked at the door warily but all my trepidation vanished when Fatima entered with a lunch tray I gave her my most sincere smile & tried to control my thundering heart.I closed the Holy Quran & placed it reverently then I questioned Fatima that have she eaten? She replied in negative, I told her," lets go we will eat together"...she watched me surprised & then agreed.I took my tray & we both ate together in the kitchen, after our lunch we migrated to the living room I regaled her with stories of my family, my & Rukhsar's adventures, my pranks...all those brought a tsunami of memories drowning me.I tried to control my sorrow but despair clawed its way to my soul, spreading with its vicious tentacles subduing my efforts & a streak of tears fall, I excusing myself ran towards my room, not before seeing the pity & sympathy on Fatima's face.
The dam broke & I cried & cried...I cried until I could not cry anymore...I cried until I had no tears left.Exhausted, I watched the sun as it sink, giving way to dusk.