Second Star to the Right

Chapter 28- Chasin' Mason

A/N: This chapter has some very colorful language, so just beware!! Don't say I didn't warn you.

Once again, I lie motionless in my bed, not wanting to get up and face the cruel world. I don’t need to look in a mirror to see that the dark circles are still under my tired eyes. I don’t need a mirror to see the scars left on my wrists. I don’t need a mirror to see that I’m not perfect. I know I’m not perfect.

There’s a knock on my door.

As usual, I don’t respond, but continue to lay there in silence.

The door opens anyways, and I’m surprised to see Jordi standing there with one hand in her jumper pocket, and one hand on the doorknob.

“Hey, Sam, can I come in?” she asks softly.

No words leave my mouth as I turn to lie on my back and face the ceiling.

Her quiet footsteps are the only sound in the room until she sits on the edge of my bed beside me.

“Move over,” she commands, and I scoot to the right so she can climb under the duvet with me. “What’s wrong? You haven’t left this room in almost a week.” She pauses for a moment. “It’s Louis, isn’t it?”

I have no more tears to cry, but my lip still quivers at the thought of him. “J, I thought he was the one.” I say, and they’re the first words I’ve spoke in days.

She pulls me closer, and I dig my head into her shoulder. “What did he do?” she asks me while stroking my hair gently.

My restless eyes stung with tears that I thought were nonexistent. “He...” I paused for a sharp intake of breath as the heartache begins again. “There’s another girl.” I finally spit out, and I swear I could hear my heart shatter even more.

Jordi stopped stroking my hair, and I pulled away to look at her. Her eyes were wide with surprise, and her jaw was nearly to the ground.

When no words came out of her mouth, I took it upon myself to speak. “I’m not upset because he broke up with me—well, I am—but the thing that really gets me is that he couldn’t have broken up with me when he realised he didn’t love me anymore? He continued to date me, and had another girl on the side? I’m not as upset that he broke up with me, because I’ve had break-ups before. I’m just upset that he could’ve saved me so much heartache. He led me on, and I thought I really loved him.” I took a moment to laugh humourlessly. “I guess I still do love him, but he could’ve let me know earlier that he didn’t love me back.”

Jordi clenched her jaw tightly, and grabbed a fistful of my duvet before relaxing and getting up from my bed.

“Where are you going?” I ask her, not even bothering to sit up in my bed.

A smile played its way onto her features. “Take a shower, the smell of your sadness is getting stuck in my windpipe.”

I slowly ease myself out of bed, making sure to pull down the sleeves of my jumper so she doesn’t see the scars. “Alright then, where are we going?”

“We’re making a few stops. I’m taking you out for coffee, and then we’ll do some shopping. We need new dresses to go out.” She emphasised the last sentence, raising a slick eyebrow.

I groaned. “I don’t wanna go. I’m not in the mood.” I pouted like a little child.

“Sam, we’re going. You need to get your mind off of Louis. There’s no discussion about it. Be ready to leave in 20 minutes.”

With a final groan, I finally drag myself to my bathroom, but, as usual, I stop in front of the mirror for a moment.

I see a soulless figure standing before me.