Other girls my ages wish for ponies or dream of a pretty dress and tiara, they wear ridiculously bad eyeshadow and $2 lipgloss but I wish for my sister back and dream to be rid of this pain. I wear all black to mourn the loss of my sister, innocence and childhood. Next year I go to high school, Paige always wanted me to go through high school and follow my dream but I have no skills. I'm useless all I can do is draw and that's pointless. Just like me I guess. I finally understand what Paige did when she hurt herself, I understand it all. She needed the pain to feel alive, she felt like she deserved it but most of all she just wanted to feel. My foster father got angry before and cut my leg with a knife before passing out. The worst part is I liked it so I grabbed the knife and just kept going without stop. Paige visited me, telling me to stop before it's too late but I knew it was just in my head. But I did stop, for her.
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It's 2am and it's cold and really blurry
The only thing I know for sure is that I need you here
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What is sleep when your already dead.
I love her.
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Brave
RandomA little girls diary entry of her big sisters diary entry's, each paragraph involves the whole day of the day her big sister Paige's diary entry is on. I won't lie, it's a bit depressing and has a lot of random depressing poems I got off the interne...
