Suicide. It came into my head from nowhere, first empty then suicide. She did it on purpose. It's the middle of the night and I suddenly can't breath. The whole world around me spins in ways I couldn't understand and suddenly nothing I knew was real the the struggle I can feel in my lungs and the sting in my eyes. I drop to my knees then on all fours just to try and feel, to balance or just so I know that there is in fact a floor still there. Everything's weak and I can't manage to get my body to do anything. She left me. We were so close and she just left me without even the slightest thought of how I would manage on my own, it's selfish of me but it's true I needed her and she abandoned me. It's been a blur but I realised 2 weeks ago, I've been alone in my room with minimal food and water for 2 weeks sleeping off my life waiting to taste the sweet sensation of death. Yeah. Death. That's the best thing I've been able to think about for a long time. They always said me and my sister were alike, why not prove them right.
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But if I sit in the rain
Maybe I can drown in something other than my own thoughts
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I can't forget her.
I can't stop loving her.
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RandomA little girls diary entry of her big sisters diary entry's, each paragraph involves the whole day of the day her big sister Paige's diary entry is on. I won't lie, it's a bit depressing and has a lot of random depressing poems I got off the interne...
