Secret Love | ksg. & ijb.

Rough

Seulgi locked her phone as she saw her phone flood with notifications from Jaebum

She thought hard over the past week, a lot of over thinking involved with some teary nights,
Wondering where their relationship stood, why things felt so complicated and how things would end up,
Just a lot of negativity ran through her mind.

Why was she avoiding him? That she wasn't so sure either.
At some point she was thinking she just wasn't good enough for him
She felt he deserved better, someone who wasn't an idol.
Someone who lived a normal life and
Maybe, just maybe
People would accept his lover.

As more messages came through, she turned off her phone and put it in her bag

Their comeback was near, a lot of practice and preparing kept her busy and in some way kept her mind off him but sadly only for the shortest amount.

She got up from the floor and joined her members who were warming up to practice their new choreography for their upcoming song.

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(After practice)

"I hope we have good promo for this cb" the youngest one said as she fanned herself with her hand

"Me too"

"Me 3"

"Me 4"

the members eyes traced to Seulgi who was zoned out, hoping she'd be the last to join in their dorky conversation

The girls shared a few looks at each other before snapping Seulgi back to her senses

"Yo seul!" Wendy said loudly

She flinched, and focused her eyes to her members

"Huh?"

they all chuckled,

"You okay? You seem so out of it today" joy said

"Yeah! I'm fine, just really tired that's all" she gave them a reassuring smile

The girls felt a bit off, but Shrugged it and continued on with their conversations.

Once they were done with practice they headed back home, Seulgi tried blending in and trying to act happy but inside she was crying for help, she needed that support, that advice, just that someone who would tell her everything will be okay.

She grabbed her phone from her bag and fiddled with it in her hands, comprehending if she should turn it on or not

After a good hard think, she turned it on but was immediately regretting her decisions as she saw "jaebumie" pop up on her phone

By that time they had arrived home, she got all her things and walked into their dorm

They were all exhausted and it was only late afternoon

The members dragged themselves to their rooms, but Seulgi on the other hand walked to the kitchen and grabbed her comforting snack, Pringles.

She got out her phone and finally opened his messages

Her eyes widen as she saw the most recent ones

I'm outside your dorm.
Sent 6:02pm

Come out or I'm coming in
Sent 6:03pm

She dropped her Pringles and ran out the door not wanting him to come in

Once she got outside, she saw a Built figure covered in disguise-able clothing

She knew it was him, she sighed and made her way to him

"Jae-"

He cut her off and hugged her as tight as possible

The emotional girl, let out her tears.
Never did she think that what she needed most at that moment was a hug

She sobbed in his embrace, then eventually she moved herself out of his grip

"Why are you avoiding? Did I do something wrong" he spoke

She moved her head side to side

"Then why are you like this?"

She didn't speak just gave him body actions

She shrugged her shoulders,

"don't you love me?"

She begun to tear up again, those words hit her hard
Of course she loved him, with all her heart but loving him was not easy.

"I love you so much Jaebum, to the point it's driving me insane. I just don't want you getting hurt, I don't want people hating on you, I want us to be happy but how can we when what our careers consist of doesn't accept it."

"Baby stop, you are overthinking this too much. I don't care what people think, they can hate on me all they like, it won't ever change the fact that I love you. just don't leave me, we can support each other through this."

He kissed her on the forehead and proceeded to hug her.

Nothing could break them at this point but she still felt a big weight was still carrying heavy on her back and soon enough she won't be able to bear it any longer.

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I just realised I write some depressing shit
Anyway I think it's the longest chapter so far?  I tried making it long!  I wrote this at 3am so if it's a weird I'm sorry
I hope you enjoy!
& Don't worry there will be some happy times of Jaegi! For now they are just goin through some hardships. ~