"What are you doing here?" My ass of a mother calls from the kitchen. I can hear her voice raspy and simply annoying.
"I can't wait to leave tonight." I think to myself.
"I just need a couple things for Aroura's" I lie.
"Fine, then get your ass out of here." She replies sassily walking over to a box on the counter.
"I will" I say flatly turning the corner.
I'm done putting up with her bullshit. I know regular mothers and daughters fight, but not as much as my so called mother and I do. It's not healthy, and if I've learned anything from what my dad taught me, it's that you should always protect yourself, emotionally and physically.
I open the door to my room, and walk in one last time. I look at the four white walls a last time and I see the picture of my father and I from my 13th birthday. That was about right before he passed. We both looked so happy, because we were. Once he died it was like all happiness had been taken away from me.
They say that you can choose how you miss people and how you feel. That you have the power to be happy. I don't believe that at all.
See in my view point, yes usually you can choose to be happy or sad but when the person who was bringing you happiness leaves, and you truly had no one else, you are left with you and your thoughts, it can ruin you. If you ask anyone, I don't care if they're the happiest person on earth, ask them "if you had no friends, no true family, no one but yourself, could you live happy?" I don't think they'd answer with a yes.
I shake away my thoughts and look at the stack of photos I have on my dresser. All pictures from my high school years. Then I found Aroura, and she showed me the gang. All the memories we have. Yeah we've done some bad stuff and stupid things, but at the end of the day we're people. We all desire the same thing in life. Happiness. We believed we can bring one another happiness. I'll tell you something. They helped me so much throughout these past 3 and half years. But I'm going to be an adult and I still want to live my life and go to school and be successful. I can't do that with a group of people on me and a label. This is why I'm leaving. To get a new start.
The vibration and ringing in my pocket stops me from thinking about my future.
"Hello?" I ask wiping my face with one hand.
"Hey, are you alright?" Sierra asks me.
"Yeah yeah yeah, I'm great um I'll be waiting for you at the park by the tallest tree. I can't stay home right now." I sigh and walk to my bed and grab the bag I've had the money in.
"Okay well we can leave now then. I don't want you waiting alone. Just let me pack up a few last minute things okay?"
"Alright. See you soon Sierra." The line goes dead and I walk out the front door as quiet as I can.
"Bye you worthless piece of shit" she calls from the kitchen.
"bye mom." I wasn't leaving her the way she left me.
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I left my car to meet Sierra at the rocks but she wasn't there. As I checked my watch I see that it's almost time. Where did she go?
"Sierra?" I whisper yell. I do not need anyone seeing me alone here this late, too much can happen.
"HEY BITCH!" she jumps on my back leaning forward to see my face. I was too shocked to scream so I just gasped heavily, causing me to start coughing.
"God dammit Sierra, I'm lucky I have a pad on!" I groan and clear my throat.
She laughs so hard and hangs onto my shoulders for dear life. I jump so she isn't falling off my back and walk the both of us to my jeep.
"You ready Rose?" she asks.
"Beyond ready" I reply.
"let's go" I walk to my jeep across the narrow street and drop her at the passenger side.
"um im driving first, okay?" she says as she puts her hand out for the keys.
"ugh fine" I don't bother arguing, I could use a nap anyways.
We both get in and buckle up closing our doors.
"All set?" she asks as she turns the key in the ignition, changing the radio to Ed Sheeran.
"Yes ma'am" I say lazily.
"Ouch, someone's grumpy" she teases pulling out of the lot.
"Just my mom, but I'm okay. I won't see her anymore so I'm glad about that. Anyways, I'm going to snooze. When you need a break just wake me." I tell her while getting my blanket from the backseat.
"Alright Rose, sleep tight." she says as I shut my eyes.
Bye Chicago, until we meet again.
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this sucked but I'm getting too many threats to update so here it is.
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