This is what comes from my mind

In

In first grade she wanted to be a princess

But she got made fun of so she kept her mouth shut

In second grade she wanted to be loved by a boy

But love was silly

In third grade she wanted to be smart

But no one let her say her creative ideas

In fourth grade she wanted to be an art teacher

But then she realized how bad she was at art

In fifth grade she wanted to be famous online

She found new friends and had over a thousand followers just because of roleplaying

In sixth grade she caught feelings for a boy and tried to dress formal just so she could impress him

But he whenever he glanced at her he just seemed bored

In seventh grade she started to question her sexuality because she felt romantic and love feelings towards girls

Then she realized what her sexuality was

In eighth grade her mother told her father what she was

Her father was confused but stayed silent, she knew he wouldn't accept her

In ninth grade she wanted to be silent and not be bullied

But everyone hated her weight so she started skipping meals

In tenth grade she wanted to be beautiful

Mama told her "but you are beautiful" daughter just couldn't understand why mama was lying to her

In eleventh grade she wanted to cut herself and not eat anymore

So she stopped eating and only drank water and she found a silver thing and drew on her arm and it turned out red

In the middle of senior year she wanted her life to be over

She lost weight

She was diagnosed with bipolar depression

The lines on her arms got deeper and deeper

She stared in the mirror

She still thought she was ugly and fat

But she was so skinny to others

She wanted everything to be over

She knew she had a loving girlfriend to help her

But she figured that everyone would be happy without her

She opened the cabinet and found an orange container

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She never finished high school

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Oh my gosh, fifty poems. That's a lot of poems to me, I am sad to say this but I think it's time to end this poem book. I am so glad I decided to create my own poems and share them with people online. Thank you for the support :3 I am thinking on creating another poem book and it could also have 50 poems. I would love to do that and maybe I could use some new styles. Thank you all for reading! <3 ~ Madi