elusive love || s. mendes

ten

days passed, i stayed with jasper since i left the hospital. everyone blew up my phone obviously, so much i had missed. i just grew tired, i was grateful for jasper taking care of me though. while shawn was whoring around in my home. jasper was out grocery shopping, i gave him a list of what i needed.

i heard a few knocks on his door, i walked to his door, turning the knob.

"i heard you've been hanging here."

i instantly slam the door, but before it could close, his foot got in the way.

"fuck, ow!"

i open and close it over, and over again. he won't move his damn foot.

"leave big foot."

i hiss, he sighs.

"no, i'm not leaving until we talk."

i laugh.

"there's nothing to talk about, i fell into a coma. you gave up on me, started fucking a bunch of prostitutes. and better yet, you did all that in my house, while i was in the hospital all these years."

"paulina, thats the way you see it. the meaning behind it will explain everything."

"see it? you're just too blind to see that our arranged marriage never meant shit. maybe your hormones were out of hand, and you weren't into necrophilia. so i, obviously, wasn't an option!"

i sarcastically comment, i'm furious to even think about what he's done since i've been asleep.

"paulina, we thought we lost you for good. i knew you'd want me to be happy, even if that happiness didn't include you."

i feel my heart tear.

"shawn, i love you. you didn't love me. by the look of your actions, and whats been going on these past few years. i don't think you ever will."

shawn's eyes became glossy. i try closing the door again, instead of shawn moving his foot, he grabbed onto my hand.

"paulina, that's where you're wrong. i did love you, i still do. i'm glad you said love, and not loved because i don't think i could handle this anymore."

shawn croaks, my mouth drops, astonished. what the fuck is happening.

"what are you saying?"

shawn rubs his thumb softly against my hand. fuck, don't do that.

"i never got to tell you this, but i do love you paulina. i always have, and i always did. yes, at first i didn't in the beginning. but as we chose the wedding arrangements, seeing you in that beautiful wedding dress, and the jealousy i had when you spent time with jasper. i knew what i felt, and that was love. when i looked at you paulina, i saw a friend.

now, when i look at you, i see my wife. i see the person i want to spend the rest of my life with, i see the woman that not once left my mind all these years. please, martinez, give me another chance. i was ruthless, and not in my right mind. i'm a monster, and a pig for what i did. it'd be a miracle if you forgave me, but it's worth a shot. you're worth it, martinez."

i felt my cheeks, tears were falling. he was on his knees, i sighed.

"stand up, you ass."

he stood up, i opened the door, grabbing the back of his neck. i placed my lips onto his, i moved against him in sync. he pulled away, out of breath.

"god gave us another miracle, your awakening. a sign for me to love you right this time, i love you paulina. don't ever forget that."

he held my hands together, gently kissing them. i lay my forehead against his.

"hey, well, this was one hell of a telenova. can you guys like move a little bit? i have ice cream paulina was gonna eat while sobbing to netflix on how you broke her heart. but since you both are together again i'm guessing?.."

jasper looks at us both in question, i nod, laughing.

"i guess i might just return it."

jasper turns around.

"no, wait! come inside, let's have sundaes for celebration."

i suggest, smiling at these two dorks. they chuckle.