When You Left... (Prequel)

Ch.32 - Not any better

N A T E S P O V

Things are progressively getting worse, Marc is becoming a lot more aggressive. At first I thought it was nothing that he didn't even know he was doing it, now I think he's fully aware he's doing it. Drew almost caught him doing it once, it took a lot to convince him that it was nothing. Which then lead to him having a rant about how much he dislikes Marc and that I should be careful around him. Which I brushed off because he keeps telling me and it's getting annoying, I mean Marc is the reason I got to see Jack and Jack. I'm not gunna lie when I saw him the next day I attacked him with kisses, oh yeah if you're wondering. They were great, that's a lie. THEY WERE AMAZING. I got to meet them, I had to control myself from fanboying in front of them.

Anyway, Mum has left to go on tour with Luke and the guys. So it's just me and my dad, well I guess and Drew. He's practically over every day, more like he is over every day. So it's not that bad, plus I have Marc. I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing anymore. The other day when I was at his house and his parents were out he yelled at me because I wanted to hang out with Drew on the weekend, it's been a while since I've had Drew sleepover. Only because Marc wants to spend time with me, of course I was terrified when he yelled at me. Like I said before, I hate people shouting at me and to have my own boyfriend do it was even scarier. Though I'm not sure if it's as scary as when my mom yelled at me for coming home late. Then of course he realised what he did and apologised quickly, I'm not gunna lie I did almost cry. I think that's why he was more panicked than when he usually apologises to me, which sounds weird. You would think he wouldn't do anything for him to have to apologise for.

I went home straight after that, I ignored his texts and calls as well. When he saw me at school he surprisingly spent Lunch and Break with me, much to Drew's dismay. I had to hide the fact I was uncomfortable with nearly everyone watching us, the day after that he went back to hanging with Carter. Who every time he sees me would give me a knowing smirk, which is very worrying. If you're wondering if he's stopped the answer is no, like three days ago he thought it would be a great idea to tease me more about my notebook and tell me that Marc would never love someone like me. Then he continued by kicking and pushing me around, luckily it didn't seem hard enough to cause bruises but it still hurt. Like a lot.

I didn't tell Marc or Drew, I never tell anyone when Carter bullies me. In fact I don't think anyone knows other than Carter and his gang, well I say anyone but I mean people that might actually care about me. So Drew and maybe some family members.

Yesterday Marc practically threatened me to spend Friday night with him, which I guess is alright because it means I can spend the rest of the weekend with Drew. Well it's not alright really because he threatened me, well it was more pinning me against the wall and slightly raising his voice. Me being me was scared and said yes, in which he smirked and kissed me. That would also explain the other hickey I have, the first one is practically gone now. Yet again I heard him whisper 'mine' once he finished, I'm not gunna lie that kinda scared me. Then he walked off somewhere coming back with food and Spiderman for us to watch, again me being me soon got over what happened and was happy spending time with him.

Today is Friday, meaning that I'm spending the night with him. I kinda felt bad that I'm leaving my dad alone but I don't think he'll mind, I hope he doesn't mind. Drew and his family are going somewhere tonight anyway so I don't think it's a problem me and Drew aren't hanging out today, I mean we hang out all day at school anyway.

I wave Drew off as he gets in the car, Marc said that I could just go home with him after school so that's why I'm waiting by the doors for him. I watch as the car containing Drew drives off, I sigh but it gets cut off when someone pushes into me. Luckily my body decided not to be as clumsy today and I managed to stable myself, I hear snickers. Looking up I see Carter and his 'friends' laughing as they continue walking, soon Marc comes into view with a small smile. "Hey baby okay?" he asks, I bite my lip nodding. "I bought some new movies we can watch and Mom said that we can order whatever you want to eat" he says taking my hand, I nod again letting him lead the way.

It takes about 20 minutes to get to Marc's house, he opens the door dropping his bag to the floor signalling me to do the same. I put mine beside his and follow him upstairs to his room, "My parents should be home at 4 so we have like half an hour" he says jumping onto his bed.

"Half an hour to do what?" I ask speaking for the first time in like 10 minutes, he smirks.

"Half an hour to do whatever we want" He says pulling me down onto the bed, I feel my cheeks heat up to their own accord. He half lifts me onto his lap so I'm basically straddling him, "You've been quiet" he says quietly. I shrug, "What's wrong?" He asks.

"I'm fine" I lie, no I'm confused. You're nice and loving to me then suddenly you're hurting me and raising your voice. I don't know what to feel anymore.

"No you're not" he says brushing my hair out my face and pulling my beanie off which I had put on before I left school, his touch is so soft. Next thing I know his lips are on mine, it takes me a few seconds to realise what's happening before I respond. He wraps his arms around my waist gently rubbing my back under my shirt, my hands go to his hair as he pulls me closer.

For once this kiss is actually just soft and loving, I forgot what that felt like. Before all it was rough kisses, make out sessions and pecks. Nothing as gentle as this.

My eyes fall shut and I'm leaning more into the kiss, his hands slowly trail down but I don't think much of it. That's until his hands are on my bum, when he doesn't move them I just ignore it.

Marc starts to deepen the kiss, his tongue somehow finds its way in my mouth. I open my eyes not expecting it, okay now I don't know what I'm doing. I start to push back signalling for him to stop, surprisingly he does. I pant slightly looking at him, "What were you doing?" I ask quietly. He chuckles leaning forward so his mouth is by my ear,

"Don't worry about it baby, just enjoy" He whispers. I shiver which seems to be the reaction he wants, he starts to kiss down my jaw back to my collarbone. I know what he's doing know after it being explained by Drew, I move my hands from behind his neck to his head. I tilt it back up pressing my lips to his, I rather him not give me a hickey.

He responds eagerly, I might as well keep him happy. I mean that way he won't hurt me right?

His hands that are resting on my bum are suddenly squeezing it, I gasp. He somewhat takes this as his invitation and his tongue is in my mouth yet again, this feels so weird. I don't know what to do, his hands start rubbing my bum I close my eyes feeling a little awkward. I pull away from the kiss a little, "Marc I don't think I want-" I start. But just like I guessed he would, he simply shushes me and reconnects our lips. I restrain myself from sighing, how the hell am I gunna get out of this one?

I sit here on his lap not responding to the kiss, maybe he'll get the message to stop. I feel his hands squeeze my bum again this time he doesn't stop, I let out a small whimper leaning forward to get away from his grip. I squirm but he still doesn't stop, I close my eyes knowing that I'm going have to cooperate with him.

I slowly respond to the kiss feeling him smirk and stop gripping my bum, instead his hands goes back up my shirt rubbing my back again.

After about maybe a minute or two we hear the door shut and his mother calling his name. Marc pulls away from the kiss, I just blink staring past his shoulder. My breathing is uneven and I'm pretty sure my lips are swollen from how long he kept that up, Marc replies to his mum hugging me close to him.

I bite my lip and rest my head on his shoulder.

How the hell am I gunna survive the night with him?