A Lot Of Love Hate - A Lilo/Narry fanfic:

Chapter 40

Sorry it took so long, this chapter's more like two than onee

-also if you wanna skip a certain part i left spaces to mark it for youu xx

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Chapter 40:

-          Harry’s POV –

Wednesday Afternoon:

Niall’s not looking at me.

We’re in his car; driving god knows where, and no matter how many times I ask him where we’re going, he won’t answer me.

I have no idea what’s going on right now.

I mean he got mad for me and held my hand but…

Was it just a reflex?

Because he’s not looking at me and his knuckles are white because of how tightly he’s gripping the steering wheel and I just honestly have no fucking idea whether or not I should be letting my hopes rise up.

Then when we finally got off of the main road, Niall finally broke the silence.

“…do you have any idea how pissed I am at you right now..?” Niall mumbled.

Kinda.

“Niall, can you at least look at me?” I choked.

I’m so lost right now if you could jus-

“I’m not sure if I want to.” Niall mumbled.

Ah…

“If this doesn’t go exactly how I need it to then I’m not going to be able to keep myself going, Harry.”

What?

“If I look at you and you say anything like what you did to Zayn back there then you’re really going to screw me up this time.”

Niall tightened his grip on the wheel even more.

“I need this to go the way I want it to because if I’m going to put myself out there for you again and you shoot me down again then I’m not going to be able to look at you at all anymore.”

Wait a second…

“I can’t- I won’t be able to take it.”

Is he…

“I don’t want to see you and think that it’ll be the last time.”

He’s-

“Niall are you-“

Niall groaned and slammed his forehead against the steering wheel. The car swerved. I almost had a heart attack.

“Niall what the fu-?!”

“When the hell did I start caring so much about you?!” Niall hissed. “Last month I couldn’t have cared two shits if you’d just up and changed schools but now I- Argh! I can’t even go ten minutes now without checking my phone to see if you’ve texted or called which you obviously haven’t because you blocked my number- which I’m still fucking pissed at you for by the way- and- Argh!”

Niall suddenly slammed on the breaks and parked us on the side of the road in an instant, then got out and slammed his door shut and started pacing in front of the car with his hands tearing at his hair. I could hear him muttering just constant strains of swear words from my seat.