He's stuck

He's Stuck (2)

He go out with other girls. He sometimes spend on vacation even with class days just to get her out of his mind.

But the problem is, he can't.

Hindi niya alam kung bakit, papaano, kailan, basta ang alam niya lang ay gusto niya ito at hindi niya kayang hindi siya isipin araw-araw. Mababaliw na talaga siya kakaisip siya kanya at ang mas nakaka baliw ay ang katotohanang walang ibang paraan para makalimutan niya ang babaeng iyun. Walang ibang paraan. Wala.

Now, what will he do?

Forever stuck na lang ganon? Forever'ng iiwasan niya ito at hindi titingnan? Forever'ng lalayo sa kanya? Forever'ng hindi niya ito iisipin? Forever'ng nakatulala kakaisip ang dahilang kung bakit ganon ang trato niya sa kanya? Forever ganon?

Well, the thing is walang forever.

Kaya nag simula na naman siyang lumapit sa kanya. He tried to be her friend. He's being nice to her all the time. He's helping her with everything she needs to do. He's always been there if she needs a pillow to hug, a tissue to wipe away the tears, a shoulder to lean on. He make her laugh. He make her smile. He make sure her everyday is great when he's around.

Thinking that this is the only way to stop all the craziness.

But he's wrong. The feeling became deep, very very very very deep. He already fall hard. Really hard. And he can't stand anymore. Hindi niya na kaya.

All he see is her. All he want is her. All he adore is her. Kaya niyang lumangoy nang Pacific Ocean para sa kanya, kaya niyang maglakad sa Great Wall of China para sa kanya, kaya niyang pumunta sa Himalayas at umakyat nang Mt. Everest para sa kanya.

That's how much he loves...her.

Really.

He tried to send some signals to her. Nagparamdam siya sa kanya. Hindi niya naman binigla pero hindi niya rin dinahanan. It's in the middle.

Pero no response.

Yes, he succeeded in being friends with her pero kulang. For him, he is always the doer and she is the watcher. He would always come and do some crazy stuff but she is just there...standing and do nothing. So instead of sending signals, he tried to be more close to her instead.

Maybe...maybe.. That's the way to enter her heart.

He always see her 24/7. He make her laugh hard. He make her smile wider. He make sure her day was greater when she's close to him. He made everything for her seems perfect.

Then when he's satisfied, he send some signals again. Nagparamdam na naman siya. Gaya ng dati. Hindi mabilis, hindi rin mabagal. Tama lang.

But still, no response.

Maybe that's it? Maybe they are not for each other? Maybe they are not destined for each other? Maybe that's really it? Or...maybe he didn't try harder? He didn't try to enter her heart much harder? Because he can't let go. He can't.

Now that he is loving her...deeply. Very deep and it's scaring him.