Accidental ▷ Jerrie

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Perrie

I curl up in the corner of my old room and started to let out my tears. The room temperature was ice cold, the floor was dirty and boxes of useless things in every corner.

My heaf tilted back and rested against the cold white wall. My head started to hurt and my heart beating intensely.

Looking down at my left hand I glared at the diamond ring that wrapped around my ring finger. I smiled. It was beautiful but this ring shouldn't be on my finger. Luke's such a caring, young, dashing boy. He deserves every inch of Selena. Not me, not his bestfriend that was forced to pour ny heart to him.

I love him. Just not how everyone wants it to be. He deserves better. Someone that can love him and take care of him. I'm not going to capable of doing that. For the past few years of my life I've actually searched and found who I really am.

And the answer is: I'm gay. My mom can't change this part of me. She can change my hair, my choice of clothing but never will I let her choose who I love. Jade means the entire world to me. If my mom wants to give me happiness... Why is she giving me such a hard time.

I wiggle the ring off my finger and placed it into my pocket. Looking at the time I got off the bed and stood by the door.

Perrie
Is she still here with you guys?

Luke
She had to leave and honestly baby girl I don't think she's going to be happy about you.

Perrie
I know she won't. And regardless of how she feels about me right now.. I need her to know that this is for her. I know I've already hurt her but things could have gotten much worse. You know where I'm headed with this right?

Luke
Of course I do :)
Just head out when you're ready. Deb already gave me very clear instructions and a ticket to Cali.

Perrie
Cali? That's so far...

Luke
I know princess. But if you stay...

Perrie
The wedding :(

Luke
Which is why this is going to be good for you. Jade deserves you, not me. If you stay then I'd rather die then see you fake a smile for the rest of our years. By the way.. she was supposed to bring us to Cali for the honeymoon. But that surely won't happen. I have a plan though. Meet me out here asap. The girls are leaving.

I pushed my phone into my back pocket, zooming out the door and rushing past my mother without a fuck in the world.

I pushed open he front door and heard it slam as I rushed to Luke's side where he wrapped his arm around my waist.

"I'll go with you." he said.

My eyes widened and my jaw fell open," Wait what? Why?," I ask "what about Sel?"

He chuckled and told me to quieten down as he softly whispered, "She's gonna tag along when we get there. Once she does you can go and be free."

"How long are you staying for?" I ask.

"About two months." he stated.

I nodded, "And here I am with a dreaded year."

"She's what?! She can't keep you away that long."

"I know," I say, "but what can I do? It was the only way I could get her to accept me and Jade."

"Wait really?"

I nodded," Then it'll be worth it. I mean yeah it's a while but finally you'll be able to be with Jade!"

I smiled half heartedly, "I know it'll be. But how am I supposed to know if she's gonna be ok?"