Accidental ▷ Jerrie

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Perrie

I walk down the stairs quickly, trying to avoid the one person that could ruin what me and Jade had. I didn't blame him for what he's making me feel. I'm just trying to make sure it won't happen anymore. The more it happens the more I'll develop feelings for Zayn.

I didn't bother looking around the lobby. I didn't even bother to smile at the people around me. My feet just took me as fast as they could to the other side.

When I had my hand around the handle I couldn't have been any happier. Well at least until I felt a tap on my shoulder. Are you fucking kidding me?

"Zayn, what the fuck do you, -" I turned around to be face to face with Lauren, "oh my god Lauren I - "

She placed a hand on my shoulderand laughed, "Hey, it's fine. Just breathe. Chill. Not in the mood are we? she laughed.

"I've just been having a very bad day. I - I'm just trying to avoid... him. Things have been happening and I don't want it to go farther than they already are." I explain.

"Perrie, it's ok. I know what you're going through. I've been through it before and it's tough. But if you have a minute on you," she said, "he'd really like to talk to you about it."

"What?"

"Just follow me," she smiled, taking me by the hand and leading me to Zayn's office, "it's best you talk now before things... like you said get worse."

I nodded. She was right. Even if my plan was to avoid him I'd think it be great to talk. I just don't know why he knew I had something going on.

She stopped in front of his door and knocked, "I'll be out her if you need anything."

"Thanks Lauren." I smiled, giving her a hug before entering Zayn's office.

The room was exactly like it looked a few hours before. The only thing that seemed to change was the look on Zayn's face as he saw me, "Hey."

"Hey," I answer, avoiding eye contact as I took a seat across from him, "Lauren said you wanted to talk?"

He nodded, "Yeah I - I just wanted to get it out of my system and hopefully it gets out of yours too."

"What are you trying to say?" I ask.

"Perrie I - like - I like you," he trembled, a tear rolling down his cheek, "and it's bad. It really is."

I sat in shock. I had no words, "You like me?" I ask him.

He simply nodded, "It just happened," he chuckled, "and here's the thing," he sighed," you and Jade. You two are happy and in love. I don't - I don't  want to ruin that. It's been hard though. Seeing you two. It hurts me," he trembled, "but when I see you I just feel like the sun's above me."

"I honestly have no words to say."

"I didn't expect you to." Zayn said, another tear rolling down his cheek.

"But I can say that I'm sorry."

"You don't have too," he said, "because that should be me," he said, "I should be saying sorry. And honestly I think it's best if we just move on. Pretend we never felt anything. I mean Lauren - I've actually been trying to take her out." he smiled.

I looked back up from the ground and smiled," Really?"

He nodded, "I guess it wouldn't be bad to give it a go," he laughed, "she does make me happy. I just don't know if she'll be able to let me love her."

"Well why not?," I ask, "you're such a gentleman." I laugh.

"She broke up with her girlfriend a few months back. Her name was Camila. When they were dating she actually felt something for me."

"Just like you and I."

"I don't to be like them," he said, "to ruin you and Jade. But back to the point," he said, "she told me she felt something for me after we spent hours in my art room. We hung out, we sung tunes... kissed. It was such a wrong move. She was able to forgive which I thanked God for. But Camila just -"
he looked down at his hands and bit his lip as he shook his head.

"Are you free tonight?" I ask.

"Huh?"

"I asked if you're free tonight?" I repeated.

"Yeah. Why?"

"I got an idea." I smile.

"Your plan doesn't involve me fucking her does it?" he laughed.

"You freak," I laugh,"off course not."