midnight thoughts

Friends

Growing up I never really had "friends" more or less other kids who felt bad because no one talked to me. Now that I look back at it, I was a pretty annoying and weird kid, not that I'm not weird now but back then I was probably the weirdest thing alive

Some people look at me and say I have a lot of friends, sure I have people who I'm nice to and they're nice back but I don't really have a lot of close friends. To be honest I only have like 2 really close friends, those two (who I won't say names cause reasons) I hope we stay friends till we're old and laughing at things we did 87 years ago.

But sometimes I wonder, what if we never met. I met some of the greatest people through band, and one of my bestest friends, I met in 6th grade because we were the only two female trombone players, and everyone in my band and her brother were trying to get us to be friends or at least know each other's existence. We've been best friends ever since but sometimes I wonder, what if we never became friends or I or her didn't choose trombone as our instrument. Back when we were choosing my step dad wanted me to pick flute but I chose trombone and lied to him saying that all the spots were full. But what if I chose flute instead of trombone, would we have met, we would maybe become friends since we had gym together but we wouldn't really become close friends like today. And my other friend I met through her so yeah. When my other friend and I met we didn't really like each other or she didn't like me, she thought I was going to steal my other friend from her and so she was very rude towards me and tried to get me to back off. But through the mist of the war, we became friends, but what if we never stopped the roasts or never really saw the chance in friendship between us?

To many what ifs in my head, ugh...

Sometimes I question if I would have stayed with my friends from elementary school I would end up differently and become popular, most of the kids from my elementary school became popular and I left their table when it got crowded but what if I never left and still stuck with them? Well I am popular in the band and need world so I guess I am pretty popular :)

Cherish your friends because you never know when something may happen to them and you never see them again. Also watch who you make friends with because they may influence your future for the bad or good.