Be My Juliet [on hold]

Chapter 47

*Dan's POV* 

Suddenly I find myself knocking on Jess's door, barely recognizing my surroundings and surprising myself that I actually got here.  I should be back at home, I scold myself.  I should've just waited until I was sober, or not gotten this drunk in the first place.  Especially since I'm the sexual-predator type of drunk.  No, no I must leave here immediately, just like the bile in my stomach is trying to exit my body.  

Just as I turn to leave, I hear the lock unhook from the door as it swings open.  I turn around to find Jess standing there, wearing nothing but her bra and a pair of leggings, with a bottle of some kind of liquor in her hand.

"What the fuck?" I ask in shock as she stumbles back into the flat, probably expecting me to follow her.

"What?" she slurs, plopping onto the couch as I follow her.  She has music blaring, with various empty bottles on the coffee table in front of her.  This cannot be good.  

"You're not wearing a shirt," I say simply, trying to get my mind off it but needing to know why she isn't.

"Don't think I took it off for you, Howell." she spits back, taking another sip of whatever is in her hand before finishing her phrase.  "I spilt red wine all over it, and needed to get the stain out.  I didn't think I'd be having company."

"So sorry to barge in like this," I return with the same distaste on my lips, feeling myself get angry and disgusted with her again, just like I was in the hospital.  "But I needed to say something."

"Before you do..." Jess pauses, going into the kitchen to grab something.  "Enjoy this." she instructs me, handing me a bottle of beer as if I haven't had enough alcohol already.  

"Why?"

"No need for you to be sober, I guess," she tells me.  "I can tell you don't want to be here, so being a little tipsy might make it easier for you."

"Good point." I say after a long pause, weighing whether or not I need yet another drink.  I neck it, barely letting myself breathe as I pour the alcohol down my throat.  "Well, I need to talk to you."

"I'm listening," she says with a smile, sitting down besides me a bit too close.  However, I don't push her off; instead, I'm welcomed by her warmth.

"I need to apologize for how I acted at the hospital..." I blush, shaking my head a little since I can't believe I'm even here doing this.  I look over at her to see how she reacts, but instead get distracted by her body.  Her tan skin and curves are mesmerizing to me, drawing me in closer and closer to her until I catch myself leaning in way too close to her neck.  She laughs at me as I sit back up straight.

"Is Pen forcing you to do this?  I don't want to accept an apology that isn't genuine..."

"No, I came here on my own." I tell her, barely looking over at her and again getting lost in her flawless physique.  She quickly becomes enthralling to me... my sickening desire.  "I'm sorry."

"Wow." she mutters, shaking her head in disbelief.  "And here I was thinking you'd be stubborn.  Maybe you're not that big a troll after all."

"I am not a troll!"

"So you didn't want to make me mad?"

"That's not even the proper use of the word.  Know your internet slang if you're going to use it around me," I reply, standing up to leave since I did what I came to do and the longer I sit here the more I want to do something I know I shouldn't with Jess.

"Where do you think you're going?" Jess asks, standing up and pushing me back, helplessly, onto the sofa with just her index finger.  She straddles me and rests her arms on either of my shoulders, grinding down against me with me unable to do anything to stop her.

Suddenly, I black out again.  I'm gone for way too long, because by the time I come back my clothes are lying on the floor besides the couch and Jess is on her knees in front of me and doing something that should be unbelievably censored.  I stand up and push her off of me, stopping what she's doing almost immediately as I realize it's happening.  I lunge for my clothes but Jess grabs them before I can, running towards the bedroom and shouting that I've got to come get her if I want them back.  I walk into the bedroom and am surprised as the door slams shut behind me.  I turn to find Jess standing in between me and the door.

"Jess, we shouldn't do this."

"That's not what you were saying earlier..." she teases, pushing me back towards the bed as she steps towards me.  "What happened to you begging for me not to stop what I was doing with my tongue?"

"I don't know what you're talking about.  I'm drunk." I try to explain, but she isn't having any of that.  

"So am I.  What does it matter?  We'll have a good excuse for Pen at least..." she coos, finally pushing me to rest on my back on the bed.  She climbs on top of me again, laying thousands of kisses on my neck even though it makes me squirm.  It's different from when Pen does it... I actually enjoy it when she does.  But when Jess does, it just makes me feel vile.  Visions of my Penelope race through my head, her smile and laugh permanently etched into my brain and replaying over and over again as if to draw me away from this place of sin.

"It's not a good excuse.  Get off of me!" I push on her arms, desperate to get her away from me, but it doesn't work.  

"Just relax," she whispers into my ear, and I feel myself slip back into the darkness as she starts kissing my jaw.

A/N: OKAY SO i know this isn't really smut BUT ITS THE BEST I CAN DO OKAY IM NOT GOOD AT WRITING SMUT plus it's Dan's POV and he's blacking out so it WORKS please don't be mad at me like last time lol.  first off: did you catch my mini troye sivan reference in this chapter?  if ya didn't, it's from the song BITE, and that's the only hint you're getting lol.  by the way i'm still going to do the q&a (it'll be up at the end of the week) so if you have questions you want to ask me, feel free to!  they don't have to relate to this book; they can be about anything at all you want to know about me! another thing for the comments: my favorite band of all time is radiohead and i want to know, how many of you like radiohead?  tell me your favorite song by them!! here's my top 5:

1. I Might Be Wrong

2. Where I End and You Begin

3. Reckoner

4. Pyramid Song

5. Videotape

ALSO: i'm still taking chapter title suggestions lol so if you want to get a mention in this book then add your chapter title ideas in the comments! i've loved so many of them so far and absolutely adore having real chapter names other than 1,2,3,4,etc.  okay so I think that's it.  have an amazing day and stay amazing xx