Be My Juliet [on hold]

Chapter 45: Blackout

*Dan's POV*

"WILL YOU TWO KEEP IT DOWN!" Phil shouts from his room, startling both me and Pen.  We go silent; the only sound emanating from the apartment are the squeaks of the floorboards as Phil gets up out of bed and walks into the lounge.

"Phil, you shouldn't be out of bed - " I start, but he cuts me off.

"I can't take the screaming.  Not tonight." he says exasperatingly. He's clutching his stomach, slouched over and looking at us with a look of pain in his eyes.  Pen and I rush over, wanting to help him back to his room, but he shoves us off.  "I'll be okay if you guys stop fighting.  Please."

"Of course," I tell him, backing away from Phil since he refused our help.  

"Can I at least help you to your room?  I'll stay with you a while." Pen muses, taking hold of his elbow and trying to wrap his arm around herself so that she can better support his weight.

"That sounds great, Pen," he smiles at her, letting himself lean on her as they hobble back into his bedroom.  

I spin on my heels and head towards the kitchen, anger still bubbling up inside me.  Why does Penelope not realize that Jess is so bad for her?  Why would she be mad at me?  I go into the fridge and start making myself a hard drink, wanting to just forget about our fight and relax.

After pouring about half a bottle of liquor into the mix, I take my masterpiece and head to the couch, settling into my sofa crease and placing my laptop on my lap.  I go on Tumblr, then Netflix, then other random websites as I think of them, continuously drinking as I do.

Three.  Six.  Eight.  Eleven.  I start losing count of how many drinks I've had, remembering my old university days as I do.  Suddenly, it hits me like a ton of bricks.  A miniature existential crisis, if I can even call it that.  It's not like I'm questioning the meaning of life, wondering what our purpose is in the world, but more so my own individually.  Is this really what I want to be doing with my life?  Maybe I should have stuck with law, and not given it up.  Who knows where I'd be.  I probably wouldn't be living with Phil, or even in London for that matter.  I would've never met Pen.  I start reminiscing on all the times we've had together, starting from the time I first met her.  Showing her through all of London, snowball fights, and everything other little time I've gotten to be with her and grown to love her.  Do I really want to be doing this?  Fighting with her for something minor?  Even if she was being frustrating, I don't want to lose her over this.  That'd just let Jess win.  Besides, life is too short to go through times like this.  I decide that I'll go over and apologize to Jess, thinking that that's what Pen wants me to do and what I most likely should do.  Admittedly, I was a little harsh.

I stand up, and immediately recognize that something is wrong. It's as though my brain and my body have separated, the room spinning frantically around and around in circles as my feet struggle to find the correct spot ahead of themselves to move forward in a straight line.  I sit back on the couch, holding my head in my hands and trying to gather myself.  I try again, this time holding onto the wall for support and guidance.  

Somehow, I put on shoes and make it out of the house, barely remembering to bring my phone with me.  I slip it into my pocket as I start the journey over to Jess's place, trying to convince myself to turn around the entire time but staying strong in my decision to just man up and apologize.  

Suddenly, everything goes dark, and I come to to find myself knocking on her door.  Oh God, I blacked out, and this cannot be good.

A/N: hey guys! i'm really really sorry this is such a short chapter but i needed it to end here and i don't wanna pad it.  are you guys liking these every day updates? i personally don't know how I feel about it, because i feel like the chapters aren't as good.  let me know what you think in the comments! another thing i wanna know: how many of you guys ship phan?  i've been getting a lot of comments telling me this is starting to feel like a phanfic so i got wondering lol (i lowkey wanna write a phanfic and i kind of already have an idea for it but it's horrible lol) ANOTHER THING FOR THE COMMENTS (im so sorry that there are so many things lol) but would people want me to do a q&a?  i asked this in a previous chapter and a bunch of you said yes, so i think i'm going to do it, but would you prefer it to be a chapter of this book with written answers or a video of me talking?  let me know!! ALSO: REMEMBER I STILL WANT CHAPTER TITLES!! IF YOU CAN THINK OF ANY TITLES PLEASE LET ME KNOW THEM AND I'LL GIVE YOU CREDIT okay i'm gonna stop with the caps lock. chapter title credit: YouTubePleasure remember to vote/comment/follow if you enjoyed this, and as always stay amazing xx