|100 Ways To Say 'I love you'| Lashton

7. "Can I Kiss You?"

1 year and 4 months before the accident

"Luke seriously just fucking leave me alone!" I yelled and stomped up the stairs.

"No! I'm not done talking to you!" He yelled and followed me into the bedroom.

I took a deep breath and gripped my hair, really wanting to just scream.

"Luke I don't want to fight anymore and I know if you don't leave me alone right now then I'll say something I don't mean." I clench my teeth when he replies with 'no'.

"We need to talk about this okay? I'm so sick and tired of you avoiding problems just because you don't want to deal with them! They aren't just going to go away!" He yelled.

"I don't ignore my problems! I just don't want to talk about this right now!" I turned to face him and his face was flushed red and he had his hands balled into fists.

"That sounds a lot like ignoring it if you ask me!"

"Well no one asked you! Now leave me alone!"

"I'm so fucking tired of you assuming shit! Am I not allowed to have friends?! Is that it?!"

"I said I don't want to talk about it right now! Leave me alone!" I yelled.

"No. Just tell me what gave you the impression that I would leave you after almost 5 years of this relationship to be with some girl. Am I that untrustworthy?" He asked through clenched teeth. At least he wasn't yelling anymore.

"No. Just leave me alone." I mumble and go to walk out of the bedroom but he grabs my wrist and spins me around, standing in the doorway.

"Let me go Luke." I say through clenched teeth.

"Then answer me!" He yells.

"No! Now let me go before I freak out." I say as calmly as I can.

"Oh so you weren't before, wouldn't want to see you freak out now would we? Because princess Ashton gets what he wants." He says sarcastically with an eye roll.

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?"

"It means exactly what you think it does! Use your brain Ashton! You always expect everything to go your way! Well news flash, the world doesn't revolve around you!"

"What the hell is your problem? I know the world doesn't revolve around me you dumbass! Now let me go before I slap you because I'm really thinking about it." He scoffs and rolls his eyes,

"Do it, I dare you." He says through clenched teeth. I glare at him but turn my face away.

"Well? Go ahead. What're you waiting for?" He asks and turns his face, patting his cheek.

I continue to glare at the wall and he laughs bitterly. "That's what I thought." He laughed again and shook his head. "Is that what you're worried about when I'm with my friends? That they're right when they talk about you? You're a fucking pussy." Tears prick my eyes as I look at him. His friends say that? And he laughs with them when they do?

"Let me go." I mumble, suddenly less angry and more upset than before.

"What? Can't take the truth?" He asks rudely.

"Just let me go." I whisper, I wanted to get away from him. I really didn't know who he was at the moment. I was a little upset when he got home from hanging out with his friends because I wanted to hang out with him. I had some good news to tell him but I guess he just wanted to talk about this girl he saw, kill me for being jealous.

"Why? So we can just not talk about this just like we do with every single fucking thing you do?" He sneers.

"Just let me go!" I yelled and tried to yank my wrist from his grasp. Why did he have to be so much stronger than me?

"Just fucking le-ave me alone!" I yelled and my voice cracked.

"Are you crying?" He asked incredulously.

"No." I mumbled and still tried to yank my wrist from his grasp.

"Ashton-" he started in a gentle voice but I cut him off.

"No Luke! Just stop okay? I said I didn't want to talk about it and you got mad at me and then you insulted me! You're not allowed to be nice all of a sudden just because I start crying!"

"Ashton I didn't-" he started again but I cut him off again.

"What are you waiting for? Go ahead and tell me all about what your friends say about me when I'm not there." Luke stays silent and more tears fall down my face. "What are you waiting for, huh? What do they say? That I'm not good enough for you? That I'm ugly, that I'm stupid? That I'm too fat or that I'm the 'girl' of the relationship so I must be wimpy? Why aren't you saying anything? Did I hit the nail on the head?" I looked down at my feet and he finally let my wrist go. I collapsed to the ground and buried my face in my hands.

"Because I already know all that okay? And I'm sorry that I don't want to talk about how I'm jealous of a girl you're talking about right when you get home. I'm sorry I just wanted to spend time with my boyfriend and I'm sorry I got mad...I'm sorry." I cried.

I kept my face buried but I felt him pull me into his chest. "I'm sorry I'm insecure and scared someone better than me will take you away." I whisper.

"Ashton...I'm sorry. You know I say stuff I don't mean when I'm mad. And honestly I was being a dick. My friends never said that, I was just trying to rial you up. No one will ever take me away from you baby." He runs his hands through my hair and I calm down enough so I'm only sniffling every few minutes.

"I'm so sorry Ashton...forgive me?" I only sniffle once and nod.

"I forgive you."

"God I don't deserve you, I love you so much." He kisses my forehead and I can't help the smile that creeps onto my face. He holds me for a few more minutes before he makes me look at him.

"Ashton, really, I'm sorry okay? I hate seeing you cry and I hate myself for being the cause of it. I love you so much." I wipe my eyes and nod.

"I know Lukey. It's okay."

"It's not okay. I'm such a dick. And you know what? Those guys aren't even really my friends, I don't even like them, yet instead of staying home with my amazing boyfriend I went out with them. I'm a terrible boyfriend and I'm sorry, I promise I'll make it up to you."

"It's okay Lukey, and if you really want to make it up to me then you can do the dishes and laundry this week." I giggled slightly and he smiled.

"I'd do it for a month if it makes you happy." Luke smiled.

"Well okay since you offered, a month it is."

"Wait what? No I mean I was just-"

"It would make me really happy and you offered. You can't take it back!" I laughed. He groaned but laughed too.

It was silent for a minute after that until Luke looked at me softly and caresses my cheek. "Can I kiss you?" He asked heasitantly.

"I'm your boyfriend, you don't have to ask." I laughed.

"Yea well I was being a-" I cut him off with a kiss and he responded instantly. He cupped my cheeks and I pulled away only to giggle and say. "You're still sleeping on the couch tonight."

He chuckled and so did I because we both knew that I was going to ask him to come to bed when I went to sleep, I couldn't sleep without him.

I buried my face in his chest and relaxed. I definitely got something good out of this at least. No chores for a month.