The Devil and I: The Battle Within.

One Perfect Day.

Weeks went by and I just wanted to curl up into a ball and stay in bed but I couldn't do that to Harry. He needed his mama and I needed him. In the day I was calm and went about my normal day but at night I clung onto Morgan as I cried. Morgan had been my rock and it made me love him more. We hadn't heard anything about David as if he was keeping his distance, I was still concerned that he would show up and cause hell. It was always in the back of my mind and with Elizabeth constantly reminding me of how happy they were its hard to forget he exists. I wish he could be here. I wish he was close. Oh I miss him so. I had to keep reminding myself that I am Emily not Elizabeth and that I couldn't stand David for what he had done to us.
"Mama can we go to the park today?"
"Of course Wolf whatever you want."
"Emily I can take him if you want."
"Why don't we all go? I could make up a picnic."
"Yeah!"
Harry ran to get the picnic blanket leaving me and Morgan, I started making sandwiches while Morgan found the basket.
"Are you sure you want to do this Emily?"
He spoke so quietly so Harry couldn't hear him. I turned to him, paused and then got some small bottles of pop from the fridge,
"Morgan I can't stay in the house forever. Besides Harry wants to go."
I smiled at him and he gave me a hug, his hugs filled with the same warm feeling I got when I first met him. With both me and Elizabeth in my head I had come to the realisation that sometimes home isn't a place but a person, wherever I went I knew I needed to be by Morgan's side no matter what. Harry came back with the picnic blanket which was faded and tattered but we still used it, it was the blanket mother and I used after dad left and the blanket my grandmother used when my mother was young. I placed everything in the basket and then without a word ran upstairs, I heard Harry ask Morgan where I was going but I didn't hear the reply. I went to my bedroom and picked up Harry's toy wolf, over the weeks he played with it in the day but always gave it me during the night. I realised I didn't need it anymore. It was time to give it back. Put it where it belonged, with Harry. I lifted it close to my chest and breathed in. As I walked back downstairs I hid the toy behind my back but Harry already knew what was there I could tell from the smile on his face and the shuffling movements he was doing with his feet. I held it out to him and when he came for it I bent down and smiled at him,
"Thank you for giving him to me but I think he needs to be with you now."
He nodded and gave me a kiss on the cheek and ran to the car, Morgan picked up all the picnic supplies in one arm and hugged me with the other,
"You're sure about this?"
I wasn't until the sunshine hit my skin and I looked at him.
"Definitely."
He smiled and kissed me. I needed it. We drove to the park and while Harry swung from the monkey bars I lay the blanket down in the shade surrounded by tall trees away from the sun.
"Why here?"
I looked at Morgan and smiled, he had told me once about how the sun still hurt his eyes after spending so much time in the dark. He smiled and said,
"You know it really doesn't bother me that much any more."
"It does Morgan I can see it in your face sometimes."
He put his arm around my shoulders and we sat watching our beautiful son enjoy himself. After some time Harry ran over to us and jumped on Morgan laughing. I pulled the sandwiches and drinks out of the basket and handed him one which he took and sat quietly in front of us while he ate it. Morgan sipped the bottle of pop I had given him and he handed me the bottle even though there was enough drink for each of us he wanted to share which was cute. We were completely happy until Harry went rigid and sat straight up whilst staring at the trees about twenty steps away from us after seeing his face Morgan was alert and up. I had pulled Harry to me and a voice screamed in my head He has found me! My love! I begged the voice to be quiet but it wouldn't. Morgan went to the trees growling and brushing branches aside,
"David I fucking know you are there! Get out now!"
His back was hunched over and his arms seemed so tense that they might break in two. Holding Harry to me while he buried his face into my shoulder, he was so scared he was shaking and hearing his father growl made it worse. I shouted to Morgan
"Morgan you will only make things worse!"
He turned to me and his eyes were at full rage but he saw Harry and calmed down rushing to us and taking Harry from my arms and held him close whispering,
"I'm sorry Wolf, daddy was just playing okay?"
"Morgan let's just go home okay?"
He nodded and Harry clung closer to Morgan as I pulled up the blanket and left the unwrapped sandwiches and drinks. As we got to the car Morgan passed Harry to me and I got in the back seat with him cradling his head to my chest, he wasn't crying but I could tell he was still frightened. It was going to take him a while to calm down and I could tell Morgan was still mad but I didn't know how to calm him down any more than I knew how to calm Harry. We were exactly in the same place we were in when David came back and it pissed me off. I stroked Harry's black hair and gently rocked like I used to do when he was a baby. When we got home he ran to his bedroom and Morgan stood gripping the sink as if it was the only thing holding him to the earth. I gently placed my hand on his back but he didn't move he was burning a hole through the window.
"Morgan, please."
He was still staring out the window when he answered,
"He wrecked this whole day. You finally get up and get out and he comes along just to fucking spit in my eye."
"He only wrecked the day if you let him and I won't let him so you shouldn't either."
Morgan slowly turned to me, the whites of his eyes kept fading between white and black. He took some deep breaths and then hugged me tightly. I leaned into his hug but then I saw Harry's terrified face flash in my mind.
"I'm going to check on Harry okay?"
He nodded and then went to sit in the living room as I went up the stairs. Please. It echoed around my mind, please what? Elizabeth what? Please leave the boy be. The boy? Harry. I ran to his room but as soon as my hand touched the handle the world tilted sideways and darkened, I fell against the door feeling the hard wood against my face but a deep pain in my mind knew Harry needed me and dear God I needed him to be safe.
"Morgan!"
Was the last thing I could say but it didn't come out like a yell as I intended but as a whisper, I knew Morgan would still hear it though. The last thing I could hear was the beginning of a scream that came from my boy.
When I woke I was still in the same spot, I had forgot what had happened but then it all flooded back. I didn't even give myself time to stand as I opened Harry's bedroom door.
"Harry! Harry!"
The room was a mess and his window was open. Morgan appeared by my side and searched in the wardrobe while I checked in our bedroom to see if he had hid in there. I kept screaming for Harry but he didn't run to me, panic set deep into my soul and Morgan was frantically searching but it was clear he was gone. My little boy was gone and we knew who had him. David, he is just a little boy. My little boy. I sat on my bed and hugged myself, Morgan came in quietly holding Harry's toy wolf in his big hands. He just fell apart holding the wolf and dropped to the floor crying. The Devil was this big scary figure but what I saw in front of me was the Devil a father and the best one I had ever seen. In that moment David had won. He always plagued us, he even kidnapped me when I was in labour but now he has Harry. Harry was alone and probably terrified and I couldn't do anything about it. Morgan  clung to the wolf toy and did the same as I did in the nights everything seemed to be too much and too frightening. He smelt it. It smelt of our boy. Our beautiful boy. I didn't have time to think about me passing out before I reached Harry's bedroom but it flashed across my mind and Morgan looked at me,
"He did that."
He looked around the room and held the wolf close to his chest,
"He did that so he could take him."
"Morgan what are we going to do?"
He sat next to me and pulled me close,
"We have to find him."