OVER THE PAST FEW WEEKS IVE MANAGED TO FUCK MY LIFE UP SO BAD I CANT COME BACK FROM IT. i am an asshole. a loser. a fuck up. mentally insane. a person with to many problems. and for the second time I've heard, "I DON'T GIVE TWO SHITS ANYMORE" GREAT! THANKS! glad to know you were never really my friend. People have cut me out of their life or just forgot about me I can come up with a list of over 10 people in the past 6 months! Great. I feel like shit! I have a "girlfriend" yeah sure i totally love her. nope. can't even kiss her cuz she has mono. Great. At this point I'm regretting going to that flea market where i met her. i should should have never dumped StarCrossed. GREAT ANOTHER MISTAKE!!! I seem to have a shit tone of them. IM MISERABLE. I mean i spent my birthday with no friends. LOSER. Maybe I should get a tattoo that says fuck up loser. yup. sounds like me now a days. ya know what maybe my mother is right. and I'm a terrible gay person who is irresponsible and a bad influence. SHE TOLD MY FATHER THAT IM AN INCONVENIENCE. GREAT! Make me feel more like a loser. my own mother doesn't want me or like me. I hate myself. I am the only person I hate. No one wants to see me. Not my best friend not my "girlfriend" nobody. NOBODY! This is officially the only place where I'm going to talk about my feelings. Not to anyone anymore. Because Of my "Constant Problems" nagging them to much. Fuck my life. I should just die already.
