Eliza's Open Diary

8-6-16

A couple of days before school I got sick. It's the third day of school now and I'm still kinda sick and that really sucks.

I also went to an amazing Panic! At the Disco and Weezer concert the night before school. It was my first concert and Michelle, Sneezer, Kelsey, and I got lawn seats which weren't all that bad. I completely lost my voices from "singing" so loud, but that helps to signify how great of a concert it was. I still haven't completely back yet so I sound like a grandpa who hit puberty once again.

I'm writing this in math class because my math teacher is really cool and all the other girls think he's cute. His laugh is annoying. It sounds like a meathead-jock sort of laugh which kinda suits him because he's also the wrestling and football coach.

I have a love/hate relationship with school. It helps me and I'm good at it, but homework and presentations are stupid and not needed.

People are starting to look at me as I type this. It could be because I'm sniffling so much or because I'm typing so much.

I don't understand myself or what I'm doing with my emotions or feelings.

Last year on my bus there was this girl. I glanced at her every know and then but didn't think too much of it. This year one the bus she cut her hair short and I honestly could not stop staring at her. She was really beautiful with blue eyes and red hair... But I don't even know her name which is stupid because I'm stupid.

I feel like I'm being rude/unfaithful to Serenity even though we aren't dating. I don't this whole thing has been keeping me up.

I'm probably going look up her name in the year book. I should remember it because I tried out for the girls basketball team last year and so did she (but she actually made the team). I feel really awkward about this but I really want to talk to her or just go up to her and tell her that I think she's really pretty. I don't know... I'm not very good with people. Advice is very much needed.

I'm just laying down in bed and watching Pokemon because I'm very bored, when I'm not in deep thought.

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Sorry I haven't been updating. There's been no time. Please leave advice, suggestions, etc.

(Just to clarify I'm not a lesbian I'm bisexual)