Pregnant With Your Baby

♡ 33. I didn't mean what I said

*DISCLAIMER THIS CHAPTER HAS NOT BEEN REWRITTEN NOR HAS IT BEEN EDITED*

LOUIS.

It's been two weeks since Zayn pretty much raped me, two weeks since Zayn got arrested, and two weeks since I last talked to Harry. I have been staying in our room all day, and Harry sleeps in the guest room. I only come out to eat, and when I do, I make sure Harry isn't around. I go to my doctor's appointment alone.

Every day Harry tries to talk to me, but I just can't bring myself to talk to him. I feel disgusting, I feel disgusting because Zayn was able to do what he did, and I couldn't even fight back. Every time I get into the shower, I make sure that It's extra hot, so I can at least get rid of the feeling, of what Zayn did to me.

As much as I want to cuddle up in Harry's arm's, I can't. I'm not mad at Harry, because I know he was just angry, and he wasn't really thinking about what he was saying at the moment, but I just feel so disgusting.

I miss being held at night, at the moment I only have Noah, and all he does is kick all night. I wouldn't be surprised if he wanted to become a football player. "Louis, can we talk?"Harry asked walking into the room. I stared at him for a little while, and then Buttercup nudged me with his little foot, and I nod for Harry to talk.

"I'm sorry for what I said, I was just So angry. I was so angry, he first rapes Gemma, then you, I was just so angry. When you told me not to kill him, it made me even angrier, 'cause I felt like you wanted to protect him." Harry said with a tear rolling down his cheek.

I wiped his tears away, and I gave him a kiss on the cheek. "I'm not mad at you, I'm mad at myself because Zayn was able to even rape me, it's been two weeks, and I'm still disgusted," I said, and Harry pulled me into a hug.

"I feel so disgusting Harry, Noah, wouldn't even kick for a few days, I was so worried." I sobbed into his neck. "Shh, I got you," Harry said, kissing my stomach. Soon as he kissed my stomach, Noah started to kick, I guess he missed his daddy, too.

"Did Noah miss his daddy?"Harry gets a few more kicks in response.

Thank you for reading.

Are the comments the same for you...in the last 2 chapters...please let me know, I wanna know if it's like that for everyone.