If you planned to kill me in an instant then you had already succeeded. I had been an empty soul in a living body for almost five years. You didn't know how much I lost when I was struggling to forget you. You didn't know how many blades were able to sketch a scar to my skin. You didn't know how many pounds I lost, people I shoved away, mirrors I had been broken and thousand music played just to be able to stood up and look forward to another day.
I was holding that jewelry box along with the plain white envelope that was addressed to me. I didn't know what to do and I did not have the guts to opened the both of them. I left them into my bed and went to the bathroom to take a quick shower and to buy time to think and decide.
After those fifteen minutes of agony, I decided to open the jewelry box. The tears just flowed from my eyes the moment I saw the ring with a shiny diamond in the center and a 'Marry me' phrase written on the other side of the box.
I quickly tore the envelope and read the letter that might be able to change my life. As I continue to read your letter for me, tears were flowing freely from my eyes. 'Love' you said and from that I had already cried a river.
My life was a ball of pain. Will it ever end?
