Augustus Waters: Longer than Forever(The Fault in Our Stars)

Chapter 3

I leave the hospital with an ache in my heart. I know that as I take each step, I get farther from Augustus. I feel as though I am leaving him behind.

I open the car and bring my oxygen tank in with me. The door closes by my force, and I am left alone to my thoughts. I don't know where to go. My parents and I were in a fight just before I left. They said something about seeing Augustus too much. They don't get it. They still have each other, and I am already losing Augustus.

Augustus told me before he went to the hospital that I was losing respect for him. That I wasn't calling him Gus anymore. Maybe he was right.

I realize that I have been thinking for about 10 minutes already since I entered my car. I start up the engine and drive. I still don't know where I am going.

As I drive, I realize I am on my way to the church. I'm approaching the entrance. I get out of my car and roll my oxygen tank out with me. I decide to go inside.

The church is nearly deserted with only a few straddlers. I walk to the room where we would have been having support group. I look around, and I picture this room when I first met Gus. I think to how lonely I was at that time. I only had Isaac and my parents. Kaitlyn barely counted, I only went to the mall with her a couple times. I remember my life when I met Augustus. So different. I never knew that life could change so fast. I take a seat in one of the chairs.

A tear streams down my face, and I don't realize it. I sit there for a while, crying. I don't know what else there is to do instead of cry. Crying won't make a difference though. Just because I cry it doesn't mean Gus will live, it doesn't mean I will be pure of my cancer. But how can I be complaining about my cancer when Augustus doesn't even have his leg anymore? I suddenly feel guilty for thinking these thoughts. I shouldn't be here at the church complaining and crying about my life. I don't know when I have become this person. I get up and finally decide to head home.

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I enter my house, the warmth tugging me in. I smell dinner and immediately know my parents are cooking. I attempt to go to my room without being seen.

"Where are you going Hazel?" My mom questions. "I recorded another episode of America's Top Model for you."

Why is she being nice?

I turn my head slightly and reply, "Oh thanks Mom, and I'm headed to my room. Long day."

"How was Augustus?" She questions again.

Augustus has been a touchy subject for me lately. I think it's because I long to hear his voice again and feel his lips sync against mine.

"Don't act like you care." I mumble and walk to my room.

I sit on my bed in silence. My chest still has this pain to it. I don't know how to describe it; it feels like half of my heart is missing. I know it sounds cheesy, but this is how I feel. I decide to turn on my radio.

The soft sounds of Ed Sheeran fill my room.

-

I wake up with a loud crash in the living room. I unconnected myself from Phillip, and connect myself to my oxygen tank.

As I enter the living room, I process everything in. Isaac is standing with his arms out and a lamp is at his feet.

"Isaac!" I yell, but not too loud to wake everyone up.

"Hazel?" He questions.

"Who else would I be?" I reply, getting annoyed.

"I came by as soon as I could Hazel." Isaac rushes his words almost as if he could hear my thoughts.

"He woke up, Hazel. He woke up. It might be the last time."

What? Am I hearing this right??

"Who woke up?" I question, knowing the answer but needing to hear it come out of his mouth.

"Gus." He answers.

This time his words process through my mind and happiness pours through me.

I run to my car quickly; outside Julie is waiting. She was probably the one to drive Isaac here, and they planned to drive me. I suddenly realize that I left Isaac back in my house. I run to the door and grab him by his shirt to pull him to Julie's car.

I reach Julie's car and roughly push Isaac in; then I get in myself.

I look down and I realize I am still wearing my pajamas. I guess the thought Augustus makes me forgetful.

"Ready?" Julie asks.

"Yes." I reply.

As ready as I'll ever be.





(Hi! Wow almost to 400 reads!! Okay so in case you forgot, Phillip is the name she named her machine that helps her breathe at night. It's not a boy. Haha just to clarify that! Sorry these chapters aren't that long I don't think this plot is very long! I could only have Gus live one day extra because it would be very unrealistic for him to survive. The one more day is unrealistic as well, but I wanted to have Hazel say goodbye. I'm starting a new story soon! I promise Ill update by next Sunday as we'll!!)