The Real You

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Depression had got all my mind. Just it seemed the whole world around me is dull and gloomy. Before I could again start worrying about Vanessa, I went straight into my room and changed into typical muggle shorts and a noodle strap top. I went to the washroom and washed my face and rubbed it hard thinking it would help in the removing of the dark circles under my eye and dull look of my face like a foolish. Finally I gave up and tied my hair imto an overtight ponytail. I came back to my room and sat by my bed with my heads on my knees.

Again horrible thoughts and old memories started invading. This was getting over frustrating! So I finally got up and went to common room to seek a book.

The shelves were long and huge. I didn't know what kind of books each contained so I decided to search from the first book of the first rack of the first bookshelf. The first set majorly dealt with History of Magic(which I fiercely hated). So I moved on to the second. The books were basically on Magical creatures. They were alright but I was not in a mood to read something too informative. So I jumped to the other rows. Suddenly a book unfortunately caught my eyes. It read,"Magic is Simply Unnecessary Sometimes". I didn't mention it because of the unbelievable title or more of a truth but for the flash backs it again brought to me. I could hear the echo of Vanessa's and my laughter while we read this book three years back. My head again started to hit hard and thinking about my spent days Vanessa brought those tears back. I understood it was a bad idea to read books from here. I was too depressed to move, so I slipped down and leaned against the bookshelves. Tears kept on rolling down until I heard the entrance open and saw a flash of the platinum blond hair.

This was the wrong time to sit and cry like baby, wrong time to mourn over whatever I lost and wrong time to think about whatever I will never have again.

"Your room is not big enough for your depression isn't it ?"Draco Malfoy asked walking towards me.

"Just stop bothering me please but still I am sorry to attract your filthy attention anyway."I never had lost my arguing capability even when my whole self was lost.

"Tough words doesn't always help Rebecca."He said making me jolt my head up on hearing him use my first name.

"Just leave me alone Malfoy."

"Just start to call me by my name."

"Please?"I said with a begging look to stop his sarcasm.

"I am not joking and why don't you please stop this public show of mourning."he said sitting down opposite to me.

"Why does it bother you?"

"You won't understand"he said shaking his head. He did look exhausted but as handsome as ever. His shirt was crushed and the first button was open. His sleeves were rolled up to his elbows. I quickly shook my head to shake the inauspicious thoughts away.

"Then please tell me where Vanessa is atleast?"

"Listen to me please!" He said piercing his hypnotic stormy eyes directly into mine.

If that wasn't the case I would have surely walked away.

"Get used to it. You are too accustomed to your way of life. You have to accept what you get. Sometimes life tests you, sees what you are capable of."His stormy grey eyes were still boring into mine.

"Rebecca, I have gone through harder phases. Being a death eater is something that killed me, separated me from my life, from my soul. And here I am. Decisions are hard to be made. Sometimes you don't get make them only! That is what happened throughout my life. I was born to be evil. I didn't decide it but my family did. But what matters is now I am no more what I was. I changed, I became pure and I vowed to take the path of good the day I was made a Death Eater, the day I was transformed into a permanent evil person. Vanessa is a big girl. She is doing the right thing I am sure. So please come back to life Rebecca."He finished.

I was still lost in the grey pools of his eyes.

"Are you listening?"he asked.

I could say nothing, just stare like a stupid person.

"You are a smart girl, in fact smarter than all so please get over yourself"

"Is it seriously Draco Malfoy telling me to lift my spirit up?"I finally spoke up.

"May be yes."he smirked.

"I see."my mood got 0.00000001% better.

"Get some sleep."

"Yeah but why does my depression bother you?"I agreed.

"All I say is, I know how it feels to loose something but the thing is that you have lost nothing and you are re my sister's best friend !"

I just got up and started to walk to my room but I turned and said,"Are being good behind a purpose?"I asked it as foolish as I was!!

"Good night Rebecca."He said flashing his brilliant white teeth.

"Good night...............Draco"I said after a long pause.

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The night got all of me. Even my dreams had gotten dark. I don't how I will get over this.

I dragged myself to the bathroom. My mind never got better. By the time I got into my uniform, I had given up trying to look better.

"REBECCA!!"Scarlett screamed at me in the breakfast table.

"What?"

"Please talk!"she punched me in my shoulder.

"What do you want me to say?"

"Leave it. You are not gonna talk to me any soon. But when you are better, I am always available."she said getting up.

I was too weak to lift myself up to apologise. I just stared at her.

After some time I was walking to Arithmacy. My body was too heavy to move even an inch. As I entered the class, I took a seat at the back. I slumped down and slammed my books down on the table.

I would have still dozed if my eyes hadn't caught the silver ones. They surely looked concerned and sincere. I blinked twice but yeah I was right, Draco Malfoy was really looking concerned .

After one eighty seconds I looked away wondering why I felt better suddenly. My mind quickly recapitulated his words from last night. Why was he again being nice? Was this a trap. Finally I got fed up with myself. I had enough in my mind, it hardly had space for another complication.

The whole lesson went on. At the end of the class all I had on my scroll of paper was random scribblings. I nodded my head in annoyance to how distracted I was. I used to love Arithmacy. I was really dumping myself.

The day was slower than I expected, harder than I ever felt.

While I made my way out of my last class of the day, I felt someone sneak behind me. All the day I had sensed a stare on me. I didn't know if it was real at all and if it was, I didn't know whose it was. I quickly made a conclusion that I was going crazy. Sooner or later I will find myself at St.Mungos.

The dinner table was as usual bright and happy. I could see innumerable love birds around. The war had made many realize who their true love was. While Hermione played with Weasley's hand, Ginny kissed Harry. My eyes went to Neville and Hannah and then many. But my eyes bulged out at the sight of Blaise Zabini hugging Luna Lovegood. That was something I really liked it. Zabini's wild nature would make a jazzy flavour with Luna's innocent one. I was suddenly wanting them to really get involved romantically. Yeah! that was again something.

But all this long with me Draco was also started at them. His jaw was dropped with his grey eyes wide open. I suddenly laughed at the look.

A laugh I got after so long.