The Feeling Is Mutual || Wattys 2017

Chapter 9: Instructions

Ciara Black's Point of View

Thank God, it's Friday, and so is the last 3 weeks of summer!

Yes, it's Friday, and it means for Drew's photoshoot. Here we are, driving in his van, waiting to arrive at the venue. I look at my phone, playing some kind of snake or worm eating each other's species with glowing colours while listening to 'Stay' by Daryl Ong.

I want you to stay,
Never go away from me,
Stay forever.
But now, now that you're gone,
All I can do is pray for you to be here beside me again.

These lines, verses, harmony, and lyrics wants my brain to think of our past. Our past. Mine and Keith's relationship's past. Stupid if stupid but I still love Keith.

Why did you have to leave me when you said that love will conquer all?
Why did you have to leave me when you said that dreaming was as good as reality?

Why did you left me, Keith? What did I do wrong? You were happy and smiling when you're with me. Why did we ended up separated? I thought you took our future plan seriously? What happened to you? What happened to us?

And now I must move on,
Try to forget all the memories of you and me.
But, I can't let go of your love that has taught me to move on.

Yeah, he was a bloody moron because he cheated or broke-up with me, but I still want him. I still love him. If it weren't for that crazy leech who made my ex-boyfriend's mind to go after her, I would be at least be happy with Keith by now. Yeah, yeah, I'm an idiot to you, right? Why am I still chasing him? Why can't I get rid of him instantly like he did to me?

I want you stay,
Never go away from me,
Stay forever.
But now, now that you're gone, all I can do is pray for you to be here beside me again.

I'm so stupid, right? I'm still in love with him even though he broke my heart.

Why did you have to leave me when you said that love will conquer all?
Why did you have to leave me when you said that dreaming was as good reality?

I still love my ex-boyfriend ... It actually pains me to think that Keith is already an ex. My ex-boyfriend. And, our memories were nothing but trash. It was just a trash from the past and I hate it for calling those things 'pathetic garbages'.

And now I must move on,
Try to forget all the memories of you and me.
But, I can't let go of your love that has taught me to hold on.

I bit my lip to prevent from sobbing. The lyrics were piercing and stinging me like crazy.

Why did you have to leave me when you said that love will conquer all?
Why did you have to leave me when you said that dreaming was as good as staying with me?

Why did you have to leave me when you said that love will conquer all?
Why did you have to leave me when you said that dreaming was old as reality?

Even I was a pathetic garbage to him. He dumped me for his other girl. Now, I considered myself as an 'idiot trash'. Nothing but garbage for him. Nothing but a stupid and worthless garbage for him just to put me in his garbage bin and forget about me like nothing happened!

I want you to stay,
Never go away from me.
Stay forever.
I want you to stay,
Never go away from me.
Stay forever.