Keep In Touch (m.g.c Interracial)

Chapter 19

Michael's P.O.V

Things have been a bit hectic with the guys and the band lately.  It's like we can't agree on anything anymore whether it's pertaining to the band or just us as friends.

I can't help but to blame myself for it sometimes because I know that since I broke up with Dima I haven't been fully committed to the band, it's just that when I was with her I had a whole new found sense of myself.

When I was with her I was getting back to a better place in my life, more like the way I was when I was younger and happy.

Although I've never admitted it to anyone, I was a little depressed for a while, and somehow just meeting Dima that day in the mall made me feel just a little better. When I broke up with her I kept trying to convince myself that I was doing it for the better, doing it for her, but honestly I was doing it for me.

Even though she helped me in such a major way I would always find a way to convince myself that she wasn't truly helping me, and even if I thought she was I would tell myself that I didn't deserve to be helped.

At the end if the day I know I did it for myself.

I wanted to make sure that I stayed miserable, and lonely, the way I was supposed to be. So I did it in order to keep my life going the way it was meant to.

If I've been disrespected and seemingly invisible my whole life, that's clearly my fate.

I couldn't let Dima break her neck to try and help me when I knew that I would only end up hurting her in the end.

That's all I ever do, I always leave people hurt and broken.

I couldn't do that to her, I love her too much. So I just had to let her go.
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"Okay, so I know we're on break right know and everyone just wants to chill right now but I was wondering if you guys would mind playing one little gig tomorrow night." our manager practically begged.

"I don't really have anything else to do." Ashton stated as he looked around giving the other boys questioning looks.

"Yeah, me either." Michael agreed.

"I kind of have plans tomorrow. When and where is this gig exactly?" luke asked.

"Well, it's at 7:30... and it's my niece's birthday party."

"Okay." I said not even waiting to see if the rest of the boys were okay with it.
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Right now we're leaving Ron's niece's birthday party after playing a few songs.

Just as I was stepping out of the door I locked eyes with the forst girl I've seen in  the past few months that's made me even think about being with anyone other than Dima.
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This chapter is so short and pointless it makes me sad.