♥︎ I hate you I love you ♥︎ || Jacob Sartorius Fan Fiction

Chapter 7: This Is Not Who I am

Serena's POV

"Im staying!" I say to him

"beep....beep...beep"

"What the heck, Jacob are you still there?" I ask

The signal got lost out of no where at the most horrible time possible. I need to tell Jacob as soon as possible before he gets any bizarre ideas!

Jacob's POV

I quickly call an UBER and head for Serena's house. On the way to her house I become all nervous and frantic. I don't know why but I have a weird feeling inside my mind....As if something bad is going to happen. Dammit stop it Jacob.

After 10 minutes, we finally arrive. This is it. My last goodbye.

I go up to her door and ring the bell, and all of a sudden my heart starts beating. Whenever I think of Serena, I think of her as the brightest star in the whole galaxy. Nothing and no one can ever make me feel the way I feel when I'm with her. She a beam of light that shines through and always sees me for who I truly am. I'm undeniably in love with her.

I start to get lost in my thoughts when suddenly someone starts tapping me on the shoulder.

It was Loren.

My old girlfriend who cheated on me with my best friend. How amazing.

"Hey babe, did you miss me?" She asks

"Loren, please just do us both a favour and leave me alone. I've already forgiven you for cheating on me and we're cool now ayt? Now leave" I say while pointing at road

lowkey wanted her to get hit by a bus but I'm a follower of Jesus Christ so not today missy

"Baby please, what we had was special" She says in an annoying whiney voice

"Bro, I'm over you just leave already" I say

"It was so special that I even kept pictures" She says while showing various pics

"Holy shit" I curse

"If you don't want these pictures to surface all over the internet, then you better tell that girl you've been seeing to fuck off and that you belong to me" She threatens

If those pictures surface online, I'm done. Im literally going to regret that for the rest of my life. But I can't sacrifice what Serena and I have. It's way too special. How did I get myself into this. What the hell do I do?

"What's in gonna be, Sartorius?" She says with a smirk on her face

I have to pick the lesser evil. It's right thing to do.

Suddenly Serena opens the door with a huge smile on her cute little face. Her smile goes from ear to ear and her green eyes start sparkling in the light. She opens her arms out wide ready for a hug, Damn, she's so beautiful and she doesn't even know it. And now I can't believe what I'm about to do to this perfect ray of light.

"Serena......I.... I can't be with you anymore" I say while almost tearing up

"Wait...wha-"

"Yeah he's with me sweetie" Loren says while cutting her off

Loren quickly grabs my hand and stares at Serena with a really downgrading look on her face

"Jacob, please tell me this isn't true" Serena says pleading and almost in tears

"I'm sorry Serena it was all a game" I say regretting every single word

"I was going to tell you that I'm here to stay, but it looks like it won't matter to you if I stay or if I leave. You're really breaking my heart J. Why are you doing this?" She says to me

And in that moment, My whole body felt weak.

The only person who understood me, the only person who I shared my life story with, and the only person who was able to make me happy again was heart broken because of me. How could I ever forgive myself for this.

"Goodbye Jacob. Please never show your face to me again" She says close to tears

She shuts the door at our faces and leaves in silence

"That was fun! Ready to go babe? I think we should watch a movie!" Loren says with no ounce of guilt in her voice

"Loren, I'll catch you later ayt" I say calmly

But inside, I just wanted to smack her on the head. Why do those pictures even exist. Why was I such an idiot to have let myself become who I am today. "Notorious Sartorius". Is this really who I am?

Only Serena knows. And now, my brightest light in the whole universe just dimmed.

All I see is darkness once again.

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Will update for Serenas POV soon! What could those pictures be about? Find out in the upcoming chapters! Love you all <3