Starting from the beginning

chapter 14

"Skyler I'm sorry I must've forgot to tell you. We are going back to London tomorrow. That's where you will live. With us, as in Perrie and I."

Zayn said as calmly as possible without crying or shedding a tear. I totally forgot that One Direction lived in England an Ireland. I'm not mad that I have to live in London.  I'm actually kinda relieved. Maybe I won't have reacurring dreams..excuse me nightmares. I'm upset that theu are just now telling me we are leaving to go to London TOMORROW!

"Skyler I...we..Zayn and......"Perrie tried to talk to but she started crying and cried between every word. It wasn't long till I stormed off to who knows where. I needed to go somewhere. Somewhere, some place that I can think and talk.

I stopped in front of a large black metal gate.  The gate that kept me and my family separate.  My family was inside there and not out here with me. Its not fair at all!

I pushed the gate open and walked to where my family was peacefully asleep lying there cold and hard in the ground.

It must be weird to be dead, but you don't  have feelings anymore. right?

stupid question.  The tombstones were tall and a grayish marble. there was three. One for my brother, One for my father and the last for my Mother.

They all read R.I.P  and said some details about them.

(I changed names for reasons)

Micheal - R.I.P a brother and son, a friend to all. very outgoing and loved sports. soccer was his favorite.  he loved his family and sister. January 12, 2004-2007

Dean- R.I.P  an amazing father and husband.  a loyal and hardworker. coach of his daughters soccer team. loved his family.  December 8 1969-2007

Lea- R.I.P a wonderful friend to all. a loving and caring mother to two. wife of Dean roberts. will be dearly missed 

September 22 1974-2007

Gosh I miss them so much.

"I bet you do love. they were your family after all." 

I turned around quickly scared and shocked at the same time. Was I not suppose to be here. As I could see straight again, as I was crying, I saw Perrie.

"Come here hun." and with that I ran straight into her arms and just crying it all out. I felt safe in her arms. Its like she's meant to be my mom.

"I just miss them so much. I don't want to leave them but again I want to leave."   I was full out crying getting Perrie's shirt wet with my tears.

"Skylernits ok to leave to them. They know that you love them and miss them. You show it everyday and I'm sure they can tell. everything will be alright."

I couldn't speak so I nodded into her shoulder.

"come on love we need to get you packed. Also everybody was worried about you. ok?"

Again I forgot how to talk so I just nodded and let go from the hug and held her hand as we walked to car and headed back to the hotel room.

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at hotel room

I walked into the hotel room with Perrie by my side. Instantly I let go of Perrie's hand and ran to Zayn who had his arms open. He picked me up and hugged me.

"Zayn..I'm sorry for storming out..I was just upset. .I wont ever do that again...I'm sorry. .I love you DAD" I was crying not because I was upset or anything I was crying because I now have a family that cares for me. They're like my real family except they're not and they're famous and pop stars. ..Well you get the jist.

"Skyler its ok I should have told you sooner...and did you call me dad?" His voice was calming and at the same time he sounded happy.

I let go from his hug and tried to get out of his embrace but he wouldn't budge until I told him to let go.

Once my feet were back on the ground I told him yes i did call him dad. He was happy I did. I could tell by his facial expression.  After all the lovey dovey family moment I went too my room and packed all my stuff and headed to bed.

Man I can't wait to see what England looks like. Most of all I can't wait to actually start a new life.