Unknown's Messages//Phan

Chapter 16

"Where are we going?" Phil panted after the boys had run for a while and were far enough away from the older boys house.

"I don't know" Dan shrugged, looking around "Where even are we?"

Phil just shrugged his shoulders and looked at the area they were in, trying to find a hotel or bed and breakfast of some sort, making Howell roll his eyes.

"What's up with you?"

"I'm tired" Dan mumbled, faking a yawn before turning and continuing to walk down the road. Phil groaned and wandered after him, trying to keep up.

"Dan, slow down. Hang on!" the older boy yelled as Dan sped up, not really knowing what to do anymore.

"What?!" he shouted, turning around to look at the slightly shorter boy.

"W.. What's wrong?" 

"When we were at yours, you didn't even want to leave? I don't understand. He was physically and mentally abusing you!" 

"Dan you don't get-" Philip began, but Dan just growled.

"I don't understand, I'll never get it. Yeah, alright. Forgetting my mother? I know what it's like" 

"Dan I know that but at least you don't have to hang around with a drug dealing, alcoholic gang"

"You don't have to" Howell uttered, rolling his eyes, making Phil sigh and frown.

"I do, though. My father would kill me, you really don't understand. I was forced to, I was forced to be a druggy, forced to drink, forced to deal. Not to mention if any of them found out I was... confused with sexuality... you really don't know" 

Dan sighed, unsure on what he was now supposed to do. He didn't want to hang around with Phil after what he'd done but.. He loved him? He wanted his company. He wanted to help him, definitely, nobody deserved being abused, being forced into alcohol and drugs.

Feeling something wet hit his forehead, Lester looked up to see the clouds gathering over their heads and the rain beginning to fall, slowly at first before it sped up and soon enough, it was hammering it down.

Howell stared at the older boy for a few more seconds, trying to decide what to do before taking a couple of steps forwards and wrapping his arms around him.

Shocked, Phil almost gasped but he quickly returned the hug, hiding his face in the nerds shoulder as he tried not to cry and choke on his tears.

"It's okay, Phil. You're allowed to be upset about it, you're allowed to cry. You're allowed to show emotion" 

"Thank you. I love you" Phil whimpered weakly.

"I.. I love you too, Phil"

~

The two teens finally found a cheapish motel and headed inside, booking a room for the night that they'd have to share since it was cheaper. They were to stay there for the night and then go back to where Dan had stayed but they didn't want to go back that night because the gang would probably be on the lookout for Philip.

"Dan?" Phil squeaked, looking across the room at Dan, who was just sat in the corner staring at the ceiling. They'd been sat in silence for over twenty minutes and neither really knew what to do. It wasn't a comfortable silence, nor was it an uncomfortable one.

"Yeah?"

"I am really sorry. For everything I put you through"

"You had your own problems going on, it's fine" Dan shrugged, making Lester frown and stare at him for a few seconds before getting up, walking over and sitting down beside him.

"That's no excuse to bully someone and hurt them so much" he told him, biting his lip nervously.

"Seriously though, it's fine"

"It's not though. Bullying is wrong and everything I did and said was wrong" he sighed, making Dan turn to him silently.

"It's okay, Phil"

"It's no-" 

Dan really just wanted Phil to shut up about it. Yes, he hurt him. A lot. But that was in the past and all he wanted was to cuddle Phil and for them to get on properly. Not knowing how to shut Phil up, he turned to him and pressed his own lips to the punk boy's.