Three Words // Joshler

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(song: Heathens by twenty one pilots for the movie Suicide Squad *I'm very much obsessed with this song and the video* and it's almost to 100 million views in under 2 months? And it was at the number 1 spot on iTunes on Wednesday? what?!)

I sat in my room all day thinking about everything that came out of my mouth. I know it wasn't me talking and it was Blurry but I felt like I had a huge part in it all and it made me feel guilty. I almost killed Josh, with my own hands.

I sighed before I heard my phone start to ring that made me jump. I picked it up after my heart slowed down.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Hey, Ty, it's Bren, how ya feelin'?" He asked.

I shrugged even though he wouldn't see it, "I don't know, man,"

"Don't worry, it'll get better. Since we haven't seen each other in a while, do you want to hang out at my place for a little bit?"

"Sure, why not."

"Cool, see you in a bit,"

I said thanks before I hung up and dropped my phone on my stomach after I laid down on my bed. I looked up at the ceiling. Guess I better leave now or Brendon will come and find me.

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I knocked on Brendon's door and when he opened it up, he smiled and gave me a bearhug. I stumbled and almost fell backwards from all the force, but I managed to hold myself up.

"It's great to see you again dude," he said as he patted me on the back and I followed him inside. I sat on the couch with him and he took out a beer from the fridge.

"Uh, I don't know." I said as he was about to hand it to me. He rolled his eyes,

"Just take it,"

I obeyed and took the can out of his hand. I pulled back the tab to hear it snap then took a sip, the strange taste going down and leaving a burning feeling in my throat.

"So is, uh, he gone?" He asked and I replied with a shrug.

"I don't know, he hasn't bothered me a whole lot and that scares me,"

"Well, if he does come back, just come talk to me. I have nothing better to do, you know,"

I nodded and he did too before we went back to sipping our beers.

After more beers after beers, in an hour we were starting to get loopy. I was sitting next to Brendon, with his head on my right shoulder, on the floor before he leaned away from my shoulder and I looked at him.

"What're you doing?" I hiccuped but he shook his head.

"I don't know dude," he answered back with a slur. He drank more than I did, which I pretty much expected.

I stared at him for a little bit and he stared back as if we were in a staring contest to the death. He finally blinked and I smiled a goofy grin.

"Aw shit," he cursed, slapping his hand down on his knee and I giggled. I looked at him again.

"You've kissed Dallon before, right?" I asked and he scoffed with a lopsided grin.

"Yeah I have,"

"I've never kissed a guy."

He looked at me then at my lips. I bit my own and stared at his. The next part, I didn't even realize but we were kissing. On the lips. We were so in the moment that I didn't even realize that this was Brendon. My childhood best friend. Who has a boyfriend. My eyes widened and I pulled away. He opened his eyes and smiled but then his face fell, realizing what we had both done. Suddenly, we weren't drunk anymore. I mean, we still were, but we were fully alert as if we hadn't even been woozy in the first place.

"Um..." He started with wide eyes but I cut him off.

"What did I just do." I said as I looked at him.

"Hey it's not your fault, don't blame yourself ok?"

"But Brendon, I just kissed you! On the lips! And it wasn't just one small peck, it was a full on kiss!"

I stood up but stumbled a little and ran a hand down the side of my face then through my hair.

"Look, just please don't tell anyone about this. Just forget it ever happened, or at least try," He begged as he stood up in front of me. I could tell by his eyes it was a mistake. Of course, why wouldn't it be? He's dating Dallon.

"I won't tell anyone, I promise," I answered and he sighed in relief before pulling me in for a tight hug.