Charlie, i know you are not okay. I would ask you to open up to me but everyone has the right to secrecy. I know you feel abandoned and like everyone is letting you down. But well, i can't promise you a happy ending all i can promise is to try and make you happy for the little time i can, try and make you laugh. Things are rough, they'll always be especially for people like you and me outcasts or something like that. I wish i could do more but all i can is write empty words that aren't really empty it just sounds cool. I'd give you a shortcut to avoid the depression, but after all who am i to tell you how to deal with it? I'm starting to think this is extremely plain and no help at all. The point that isn't really a point or maybe it is i don't know, you decide. This kind of things you can avoid them, but you'll have to go through it one day. You decided to go through it now as a brave person you are. Unfortunately you got used to it. You don't like it but you don't mind it. You became friends with your own ghosts and every time they stop chasing you you freak out. You start panicking looking for them since you feel like they are the only ones left who care about you but they don't. More people than you know care and appreciate you. Honestly this went through a path i didn't thought it would go but i know you enjoy to be told the truth. Now the real real point is let yourself be happy the ghosts will one day leave and maybe one day reappear in a drunken night but you have to take advantage of those little moments of happiness you get. Of course i might be wrong but you know i thought this could help or not. Now that i think about it this isn't very helpful but uhm... Puddin :v
Love,
Patrick.
P.S. u r funy
