Am I really worthless (Pete Wentz fanfic)

Chapter 17

(A/N: this book will be very very problematic just so you know.)

Petes POV

"You went to another party didn't you?" Morgan said tears filling her eyes. "Yes babe I-" I said but was cut off. "Don't babe me Pete. I gave you one more chance. One more chance and you blew it. Pete I love you I do but I can't keep doing this." She said tears falling down her cheeks. I went to put my hand on her cheek to wipe them away but she moved away. "Morgan nothing happened. No girls, no nothing" I told her. She still doesn't believe me I can see it in her eyes. Yea so what I had a few drinks last night. "Pete don't lie to me. I can smell the alcohol on you. In your breath" she said as she started crying. "Morgan I promised you I wouldn't hurt you again. You want the story well here it is. After the show we went to a small after party some friends/fans put together for us. Yea I had a few drinks, a girl walked up to me and started grind--" I said but was cut off my Morgan standing up and yelling. "Damnit Pete. I knew there were girls." She yelled. "Let me finish. She started grinding on me So I moved and then I left. I love you Morgan. I'm not gonna hurt you again like I did. Just trust me please." I told her as she finally let me put my hand her cheek. "I'm trying Pete I really am. This is hard." She said as she put her hand on top of mine on her cheek. "Pete I'm not good with relationships. I never have been, they always crash and burn and I'm the one that gets stuck in the pain. I don't get it." She tears still flooding her eyes. "I wanna trust you Pete. I wanna trust you with all I have but its hard Pete. It's not as easy as it might sound." She told me as tears fell from her cheeks. " I know it is Morgan. I'm never gonna hurt like I did. I can't promise that I'll be perfect and never get drunk but I can try. I can try and be the best person in your life. I can try with all that I am to be your great escape." I told her as I kissed her forehead. "I love you Pete I'm just scared. I don't wanna do this." She said as her hand left mine and she started crying. "I'm gonna need sometime. I don't know how much. Just promise me you won't do anything dumb again." She standing up. "Never. I promise." I told as I watched her walk out of my house and maybe even my life. What if she finds someone else and doesn't come back to me? What if she never comes back to me? I couldn't stop asking myself that. I fucked up so bad, made her doubt me and our relationship. I might have just lost the one I loved more then anything in this world because of how bad I screw things up. God I'm such an idiot. I stayed home from school for about a week. I stayed up in my room and only came down like twice a day. I cried everyday for at least all together 5 hours. Morgan meant.. Morgan means everything to me and I might have lost her. I'm a mess, I can't go to school like this. I can't let her see me like this. I've ignored everyone. Patrick. Joe. Andy. Kaitlyn. My mom. Everyone. Now had Morgan texted or called I would have answered, but we all know that she doesn't want me anymore.

(A/N: I love giving you guys cliff hangers)