"More lies" I commented throwing the newspaper onto the table. "Babe don't stress about it we know its not true" tommy replied. "But you've seen what they are saying" I told him, "screw them adam. They will write any old garbage for a story" he answered. "They keep saying such nasty things about you" I mused. "Most of it isn't far from the truth adam, we both know how many times I tried to kill myself. How many times I ended up in hospital because I had cut or overdosed. Its hardly breaking news" he said matter of factly.
"Why are you not bothered about this tommy!" I snapped, "because im dead adam this doesn't matter to me anymore any of it, nothing that happened in my previous life matters anymore" he said. "Nothing matters. Wow ok, so then why are you here?" I asked. "Because I love you" he answered, "I thought nothing mattered anymore. Nothing mattering means what we had aswell tommy, its nice to know exactly how you felt about our relationship" I said. "Adam I didn't mean that" he answered, "yeah right I get it, you clearly didn't love me as much as you made out. Just go will you! I was fine without you before im fine without you now go on go back to wherever the hell your from" I snapped.
I turned away as there was a loud knocking on the door, I looked round but tommy was gone as I opened the door. "Adam I heard you shouting from up the hall are you ok?" Violet asked. I took in her attire realising I had just woken her up, "im fine just a bad dream I didn't mean to wake you" I replied calmly. "Are you sure it was just that?" she asked, "of course why would it not be" I said absent mindedly.
"Well you have been saying you can see tommy" she answered. "Oh that yeah sorry it was just a crazy phase from my medication. Really im fine now" I said nodding. "Good im glad we need you on track for talks about your next album" she told me. "Oh yes im looking forwards to that, but im thinking maybe you need to get dressed before we do that" I said quickly. "Oh yeah that might be a good idea" she said blushing. I smiled as she went up the hallway, I shut the door and laughed quietly.
The room felt awfully quiet now, and empty. My gaze fell to the newspaper on the side as I picked it up looking at the picture of tommy on the front. I rummaged in my pocket and pulled something out, holding the paper up I put the lighter to it watching as it burst into flames. "Bye bye tommy" I said quietly dropping the flaming paper into the sink. I ran the tap over it as the flames died out, I scooped the black pieces into the bin and washed out the sink.
We were going to London to promote my album and meet with some other artists about collaborating on another one, I looked at the clock 6 am. We would be leaving in an hours time, I was looking forward to it. I had never been to London before, tommy always wanted to go but we never got round to it. No enough adam, he didn't love you the way you thought. He said so himself, I needed to stop thinking about him. I needed to move on, but I was scared. To move on to go to London. I shook my head and finished the packing.
I heard a knock at the door as I opened it, violet was standing there. "Ready?" she asked, I nodded as I grabbed the extending handle of my case and shut the room door behind me. We climbed into the car as we headed for the airport, "so adam any ideas on who you want to collab with on the album?" she asked. "No" I said all too quickly, she seemed taken aback by my blunt answer.
She regained composure quickly and nodded, "ok just a question" she said. "You ask to many questions" I snapped. "Wow someone is in a bad mood today" she commented, her happy attitude was starting to get on my nerves. "Well what do you expect when everyone keeps asking me dumb questions" I shouted. "Wow" she commented shaking her head, "im sorry I didn't mean to snap im just tired" I said quietly. "You seem to be tired a lot lately" she mused.
"I know, I don't know why. I can sleep during the day but not at night its weird" I said. We got to the airport as I fumbled with the seatbelt, as much as I tried I couldn't get it undone. "God damn it" I snapped, violet pressed the button and it came undone easily. "I tried that" I grumbled climbing from the car, we went though the terminal. The paps were there, cameras flashing and firing questions at me.
I hated how they followed me around like stalkers, It drove me insane all their constant hounding. "Adam over here smile adam" one called, I grabbed his camera and threw it. "How about you all leave me the hell alone!" I shouted as they fell silent. "Yeah exactly go stalk someone else im over it, people don't like being followed everywhere. Being asked personal questions, how about you go get a proper job you bunch of vultures!" I shouted as I pushed through them and stormed up to the ticket desk.
I slammed my passport on the desk as the lady quickly stamped it without saying a word or meeting my eyes. "Thanks" I said calmly when she handed it back smiling as her mouth fell open. Violet stared at me shaking her head, "come lets not dilly dally we've got a plane to catch" I said smiling as I made my way to the gate.
