I climbed into the bus and sat down as we headed out of the gates, we were going on a day trip somewhere I didn't know where we were going. I looked out the window, I had noticed that my medication seemed to be working a little. I didn't really see tommy or Sauli as much so assumed that the medication was doing what it was meant to. Dr Oliver was still watching me like crazy, making sure I was taking my medication. He would stand and watch as I took them, I was kind of used to it now. The constant being watched was just a regular thing I was over it.
I found out we were going to a theatre show, from the bridge we were driving on we could see the whole or LA. There had been a lot of new people being admitted and just as many leaving, I was hoping that I would be able to leave soon. I hardly saw Sauli and tommy now, I had given his bracelet to Esther for safekeeping. Shes enjoying doing wicked, she says the green paint gets everywhere. But she loves it, Garnet had since moved to London permently now. Esther spoke to her a lot, she was always ringing here to see how I am.
They are in the process of lowering my medication at the moment, ive lost count of how many different types ive had. This new one makes you feel so ill, I haven't eaten properly in goodness knows how many weeks. But not eating is better than eating and then it just making you sick. But its cool, I can deal with that. Besides the food here hasn't gotten any better so I avoid it anyway. Tommy is sitting next to me now, I heard Sauli is getting out. Apparently there wasn't enough evidence to keep him in for longer, the police see it as an accident and that's that.
I suppose im a little pissed but theres nothing I can do about it now, I suppose I wanted justice for tommy but I know what really happened now but I guess its still kinda hard to believe. We're here now, this theatre is huge bigger than any stage ive seen. We were all led inside like animals as we found our seats at the back, just in case one of these have a mad moment. I sat down as one of the nurses sat next to me, the show started as I watched it. I couldn't really concentrate on it, but then again I could never sit still very long.
I fidgeted in my seat as I stood, "where are you going?" the nurse whispered. "Toilet if that's ok" I answered as I walked up the stairs. I bypassed the toilets and made my way through the foyer onto the streets. There were people around, couples holding hands, people enjoying their evening. I breathed in the fresh air and shivered a little despite the warm weather, I looked behind me and saw that none of them had come after me.
I shrugged and made my way through the street, It was kind of surreal just blending in with people. I saw my face on newspapers, people writing about how I had just disappeared from the spotlight. Tommy was walking next to me, telling me I should go back. I ignored him and carried on walking. It was like I was just drifting through the roads as I reached the bridge from earlier, that's when I saw him. Standing on the street corner arms crossed watching me. "Well, well fancy seeing you here. Let you out of the mad house have they?" he said smirking.
"Why are you even here?" I asked, "I was just passing by. So anyway whats it like being considered batshit crazy?" he questioned walking towards me. "Whats it to you murderer" I said, "aww babe don't be like that I don't care that your a nutcase. I still love you, I know you still want me. You miss me and my dick" he answered. "No I don't, don't touch me. I'll scream" I cried backing away from him as I slipped down the kerb. He smirked and walked closer to me, I scrambled from the floor.
"Now I think you must miss darling little tommy, would you like me to help you join him?" he asked as I saw the glint of silver. "No, please leave me alone" I said frantically. He laughed, "now adam we musnt be scared. Tommy wasn't when I was fucking his tight little ass" he commented. "W-what" I stuttered, "oh didn't you know. I fucked tommy. I had to slip him a little something, You see I killed him, I told him I would kill you unless he said it was him who walked out in front of my car" he answered.
"Youre lying" I said, "nope anyway enough chatterlets end this" he answered lifting the blade up. He strode towards me quickly and with purpose as I backed away my calves hitting the small concrete wall that went round the top of the bridge. "No" I breathed as I realised I couldn't go anywhere, I shouted as he had me pinned to the wall hand on my mouth and the silver blade glinting in the streetlights.
I was bent backwards over the wall hanging over the edge with just Sauli holding me. "Please" I begged beads of sweat i my forehead, he smirked and held the blade near my neck. I lifted the leg that was positioned between his legs as I kicked him. He cried out as he let go of me and I slipped, I found myself clinging to the thin piece of bridge by my fingertips. I gasped quietly trying to keep my grip, Sauli stood above me as he grabbed my hands.
"You should have loved me adam" he answered as his grip loosened and I felt myself slipping from his grasp, the next thing I knew I was falling down into the darkness screaming.
