44 Days (Ereri/Riren)

Day 5

Everyone is speaking of you, Levi. The world exploded with the news of your tragic death. It's like you were some really famous star that we lost. And I can't blame anyone, because I know how social media works and besides.. People loved you. Everyone does. You appeared to be cold, unreachable, merciless, but the true beauty inside you was stunning. The moment I entered your cold world with no vivid emotions, I was met with your false facade you were building up, so no one would hurt you anymore, but I could see through it like a glass. And as I was approaching you, cutting your mask and reveling your true self you became so warm, so kind and helpful. Do you remember when I got lost in the streets of New York and when you found me I was standing above the small fragile crying child? Your eyes shone with so much emotion and I couldn't observe anything else, but the child's reflection only, illuminating on your sad silver orbs. And perhaps it was then when I realized how truly lucky I was to have you, love.

But it hurts nevertheless. When I came down in the living room Mikasa was in the kitchen, cooking and the TV was turned on, showing your face. I couldn't help it then, but I listened to everything they said about you. I even got to watch people cry, because of your death. People missing you just like I do.

I really miss you. So much.
It's really nice to see you in my dreams. And I love it when I can feel your presence somewhere close to my own, still alive soul, but is that enough, Levi? When I can no longer touch you, feel your usually cold, pale skin brushing my cheeks.. It's an absolutely terror to know I'd never be able to do that again. I'd never be able to live with you again here.

I love you, Levi. Like no one else could ever.